Obstinacy

2008-01-08T22:59:00.000-08:00

im back after so long =) been rather bz wif work..
its already a brand new yr..

ok 31 dec that day..i nvr went for any countdown...i jus went back home after work..thought at least my mum will be at home or something..and realised that even she went for countdown when i got home...den i feel so lonely..so i went to blast my radio...at least there's some noise in the hse..ok so actualli can say i pass my countdown wif the radio as they count to a brand new yr...however,it didnt excites me at all wif tis brand new yr..everything is still as usual...

anw my wishlist has a bit of changes for tis new yr if u notice....

since the 1st week of a brand new yr..i have been working almost everyday,cuz one of my colleagues got sent to hospital when she fainted at home...so im coverin all her shift...doing some gd deed,at the same time i can earn more money..hehe... =p

and i feel like im kinda lost touch wif the outside world, especially frens...everyday jus go work,after work went back home,reached home quite late already,so nvr realli get to use the comp....anw,finally get to rest these 2 days after last week working spree..hmm..went to chinatown ytd to do my profiling at the artist company,and they say they will call me when there's chance to act at ch8 or ch5...haha cant imagine myself doing that..

been realli slacking these 2 days..at home playing psp and do nothing much...tml have to get back to work agn..duno is i slack too much these 2 days or wad,dun feel like goin to work tml....oh ya,my expenses have been realli high recently..thx to the adult fare on the public transport,it realli taking the hell lot of money out of me..i wan my bike! >.<

and seriously i need to get back in touch wif all my frens...

thats all i guess,the summarized version. =)

something is jus better if it's left unsaid..
when? when? when?
when can i have my chance to get to noe u? =

2007-12-27T22:35:00.000-08:00

Had 2 days off since christmas..been resting at home and i find the time pass realli fast...i shall start with christmas eve ba..

24 Dec
i got out of the hse earlier cuz i need to go to the post office to collect my driving license photocard =) but..becuz of it, i was late for work by 20mins! im so guilty...although my manager nvr say any..but still i feel guilty la..

den at nite..my manager still let me off earli..he let me off at 930pm..but in order to correct my wrong..i wrote i sign out at 9pm...hope it helps ba..

anw i went to jt hse straight after my work..and found out when i reach his hse doorstep that both jt n zy r sending their gfs home at kovan..so jt's dad let me in 1st and wait for them lor...luckily i got my psp to accompany me =)

ok so they were back..they still left some food for me to eat..so we continue wif the bbq...with their gfs already home..i feel more comfortable...not i being bad or wad la..it realli feels so weird being the super big lightbulb there when there r 2 couples rite?

we had our christmas countdown while we r having our bbq..sent out n receive quite a few christmas smses =) then we 3 sit together and had our wine together n made a wish for each of us...jt's wish is the most wei da one i mus say...in any case..i jus hope my wish come true..pray hard....

after the bbq..we went up to the room...and zy started playing cs..i jus surf around the net..and jt tok to his gf over the room...we jus did our own stuffs..then zy was the 1st one to knockout...den left jt n me play a round of dota..and jt oso cant take it and went to slp...left me alone there duno wad to do...somemore i nvr bring my contact lens case and i still need to work the nxt day...so i have no choice..and i dun wan to wake them up..so i left them a sms and left jt hse around 4am+...

jus when i was walking halfway back home..i saw my dad wif his fren at a coffee shop that i walked pass smoking..so coincidence...so he sent me back wif his new taxi, hyundai sonata..can realli feel the horsepower of the car is realli strong..can feel the jerk when moving off =) anw i got home bath n etc..finally got to slp around 530am..

25 Dec
Merry Christmas everyone! ^^

went to work as usual...and i reach there earli =) nth much happened actualli...except someone approach me for a job..to work at the indoor soccer court...he gave me his namecard..asked me to giv him a call if im interested...

haha so weird la..i was serving his gf with the shoes and he suddenly bring tis up to me....well, i got a compliment card from my customer today too =D

thats all.

26 and 27 Dec
rest at home these 2 days, cuz is my off days =) its been so long since i got 2 days off straight...haha..nth much to do...jus spent most of my time playing my psp, since it is modified now and i got some games to play =p

and i jus find the time pass real fast these 2 days...tml need to work agn..

the end.
i tink im goin to get emo real soon agn...

2007-12-23T23:11:00.000-08:00

was my off day ytd...so my colleague and i plan to go back to tm outlet to walk n take a look at wad they actualli sell..cuz after the shop jus opened a few days ago..we dun have the chance to go in n take a look...cuz we were working..and oso..we were wearing the uniform cannot go in..thats the company rule la.. =.=

anw..i went there and guess wad? i said i wanna save up money for my bike..and end up i bought a pair of shoes there...but is realli realli nice..i myself like it alot =D jus hope is realli worth the money spent =) den we went to have pastamania after that..its been quite some time since i ate it...it's still as nice ^^

jus happened..we received a sms from the manger that they goin to celebrate auntie's bday ltr on after they close the shop...so we decided to stay around..and we walk duno hw many rounds of tm n cs =.= until wanna rot le...finally the time came..and my colleague n i went to collect the cake 1st..after that we meet up at tm's mac and celebrated..and i took the last bus home ^^

i guess ytd was quite alright ba...oh ya and i got my psp modified too..cool =p

well for today...work as usual..but got chase home at 8pm by the manger..he said i worked too much hours already..so ask back go back home earli =.= retarded rite? wad company's policy is that? no choice la...so i got home earli tonite....

did nth much except playing my psp =) i finally find my psp is worth the money..lol

well, tml is christmas eve le..and im not looking forward to it at all...btw i still need to work ma..haha perhaps is oso gd..cuz it keep myself occupied...den maybe at nite after work goin to jt hse for a small bbq they goin to have tml..im goin to be some xtra agn =.= 2 couples...

the end.

somehow, u caught my eyes.
ytd u were there when i went back to shop..
today, u r not working i guess,
but u were here at the shop when i was abt to go back home
i wonder why.

2007-12-22T01:31:00.000-08:00

Went for lunch alone b4 work at a coffee shop near my hse..the feelings is weird...like u sitting there alone eating, u will realise everyone who walked pass will be looking at u....

anw, work today was rather ok..rather bored actualli...but tml is my off day le =) i wonder wad to do tml....hmm..

oh ya! i broke the news of me already gotten my bike license to my mum ytd nite...surprisingly, she replied calmly and say nth much in fact...jus said that, straight away go get a car license n drive better ba...and i jus smile back.. =) cuz her response was realli surprising.

well, at least i told her i got my bike license already..another thing of my mind ^^ for now..i jus have to save up money and buy my bike..after that, i need to find ways to tell her agn that im already riding on the road..i wonder wad will her response be then >.< i doubt is a gd one though...but heck care la..i realli wanna ride on the road..

and im realli trying my best to save up the money as much as i can..like during my breaktime for work..i purposely go find something that is cheap to eat...and i wont buy drinks n etc..cuz i bring along a big big water bottle there =)

i realli wan that 3 things very much..in fact, might be 4 things already...cuz im goin to add in that i mus and will get a gd o lvl result that will be release realli soon..so i can get into TP nxt yr and a ideal course which i haven tink of it yet though.....

thats all.
bye.

off day tml =)

2007-12-19T23:27:00.000-08:00

Im back.

Surprisingly, time pass rather fast today..maybe i kept myself occupied whole day by packing n checking stocks...and i guess my manager had his worse day ever today..got 2 customers came up to him saying our service sux and blah blah blah...saying that we helped them reserve stock..after so long still nvr call them...i realli pity him..he goin to resign soon, yet goin to get complains from all these nonsense customers.

anw, been finding myself didnt tok much recently..either emo or mind jus went blank...especially when im alone on the bus rides to work and from work back home..realli hate all these bus riding journeys..

and and i still finding ways for saving up my money faster or a gurantor to get my bike asap...but deep inside, i noe very well i wont get it so fast one...but cant help it la..i realli wanna ride on the road..moreover, nxt month onwards i have to pay adult fare for public transport...sian

haiz..i oso duno how la..now only time can solve the problems.

still those 3 things nvr fail to get me emo...

2007-12-16T23:47:00.000-08:00

Alright..start work at 2pm today...so i went for a haircut b4 that =) hmm..somehow i tink the hairdresser cut too much...my hair is abit short now i tink..but shall not let tis bother me too much, shall tink on the bright side, hair will grow back ^^

cuz i already got so much other stuffs that are bothering me already...

ok, work for today is quite alright..but i tink the environment is getting more n more complicated...i no longer work here as happy as i worked here last yr..my colleagues start to bad mouth-ing others...i bet when im not around they will bad mouth abt me oso...the working environment totalli change...i find it more n more difficult to get along wif them except a few..

anw, with the current situation...i tink after tis month, i no longer have the chance to work here anymore..for duno wad reason, somehw i can jus feel it..last yr oso got somebody got fired after the dec festive season....moreover, i myself tinks that my performance tis yr is realli bad compared to my performance last yr..

time to look for some backup real soon...and i so want to get my bike la..haiz..problem wif cash...i tink i can 4get abt the gurantor thingy, nobody is willing to do that..

well well well, some nai tong or rather the fairy godMAOther said i nvr blog abt her so she wont look at my blog..so here i am, i wonder if she will realli come n murder me like wad she said after she see tis. >.<

bye.
work,work and work..wad else in my life?

2007-12-14T23:44:00.000-08:00

today is a bad bad day for me...seriously hate it ! hate everything, hate myself..argh.

ok i shall start wif that i met the person who is goin to sell me the bike kawa kips tis morning..we met at my hse downstairs...have a look at the bike..not too bad..btr den i thought at least...but met wif some problems la..so i cant able to own it asap...the problem is that if i pay full cash, i need to pay 3.8k straight..and i realised that my bank money is getting lesser la, 3.8k shldnt be a problem to me last time...but now..haiz...ok, so if i dun pay straight..i will need to pay a rougly 1k downpayment 1st..den every month i need to pay 116 for 2 yrs...actualli i can afford that..but here comes the problem..if i need to pay downpayment, i need a guarantor who is 21 yrs old n above..haiz....who can i find? i can totalli 4get abt my parents..

in conclusion, i realli wanna to own the bike asap la..but i cant! the choices i have are only..either i lend around 2k from someone..or i find someone who is 21 yrs old n above to be my guarantor..haiz one of the problems that make me so moody today..

anw, met jt n cj after that at kovan to have our lunch...den went vivo to meet wif zy n his gf..and so we proceed to sentosa's palawan beach....

win le lor..2 couples there...im like being so xtra la..haiz..den somemore today wadever i play today oso kinda screwed up..be it volleyball, soccer or frisbe...and guess wad..i tried to " act smart" and pump the ball high up in the air and it happened to stuck at the tree's branch where it is so damn high la..so jt, zy and i spent so much time trying to find things to throw up and try hit the ball down and i realli mean alot of time, like around at least 30mins ? ...ok, so after so much attempts..the ball finally got down wif the help of zy n jt...i feel so guilty la, not my ball oso..den i hit it n get stuck up in the tree, still need them to help it to get down..

haiz..today's sentosa trip is a bad n not enjoyable one for me la..go there be xtra between the 2 pair of couples only...den no mood to play all the games oso and got everything screwed up...damn! wth is wrong wif me ?!

anw, we went to catch a movie after sentosa...watched "the warlords" hmm..i mus say the story is rather confusing..but overall not bad la...den after that zy n his gf go off 1st..and jt,cj and i took train back to kovan to have our dinner and took bus home....

im seriously so hate today la, hate myself, hate everything! i cant able to get my bike asap when i am so close to it...den go sentosa screwed up everything..im so damn moody today la..argh! u guys noe abt the 5Cs thingy abt a guy? seriously i have nth that is similar to it la ! i feel like such a failure..haiz.

NO MONEY, NO BIKE, NO GF !!

2007-12-11T00:59:00.000-08:00

Whoo..finally an off day =)
went to ice skating today...2nd time in my life..haha..still i tink that roller blading is nicer..

went to meet jt, zy and his gf at raffles city after that..like finally i saw zy's gf..haha...and i finally found my black plain singlet at river island ! =p ok, so zy n his gf fren off 1st...den jt n i walk around to look for his camera lens..

in the end nvr find it...ok so i went home n took my lappy and went to jt hse at nite time...planning to ton overnite..but im working tml, somemore full shift..hmm and i heard from my manager that the CEO of the company will come tml.. o.O

anw, my originally schedule for tis week was like i only need to work for 3 days...so i go "act smart" i went to ask my manager that why i only need to work for 3 days? haha..so my schedule is now change to only a off day on monday which is today and friday =)

better still i guess...if not im goin to rot at home since i have no one to go out wif n nothing to do..

ok now im still at jt hse..gaming time ! ^^
bye.

somehow my mood is jus not gd..

2007-12-06T21:23:00.000-08:00

Ok..im back
been working a few days already..not that bad after all..cuz my manager is back...and i got to know a new colleague,fren..so not that bored..haha =)

requested for an off day today..cuz today is my tp!! and i woke up super earli in the morning like around 6 and got out of the hse when the sky is still dark...cuz the tp's warmup is around 715..so no choice...and i had a realli terrible dream last nite, shall not elaborate on it...

anw, my heart was pumping so fast tis morning when i was abt to take my tp...ok,den after i went around the designated route and finish the test, im worried agn with my result cuz i noe i did something wrong...and im realli afraid that i will fail..anw, we r so called locked in a room and wait for our results to be announce...the atmosphere was kinda tense, everyone was so worried abt it..

ok so the instructors came in after around 30mins time to call out our numbers n names...those who got called..will be asked to leave the room,meaning that they have failed the tp..and guess wad? i passed my tp!! =D at 1st i still cant believe, even until they have closed the room's door and started briefing us wad to do after we got our license...

ok so i was so relieved and feel happy for that short period of time when i have confirmed myself that i have passed..

after the briefing, i went for my lunch n waited a few hrs to collect my result slip...
after that, waited for a few hrs agn to register my license =.= wasted my whole day there, got home around 5pm already..

well, im a qualified motorcycle rider now! =)
now i have to start settling my other worries ...one after another, nvr ending..haiz...

but hey! i shld be happy now ! cuz i fulfiled my bday wish tis yr which is to get my license ! =D

YEAH ! ^^

2007-12-02T01:43:00.000-08:00

People im finally back afer so many days..haha...been kinda busy or rather lazy to blog,thats why >.<

ok i shall start wif today 1st..shall continue wif my previous days when i have the time =)

well, today can say is my 1st day of work...i worked full shift today at cs..ok,so i can say that i no need to go for some re-training when i have already 4gotten so many things after i have stopped working there for so long as today i made quite alot of sales already ^^

after a day,i can infer that the working environment have changed a little bit ever since i last worked there as the "top ranking" ppl are changing already..and oso some new colleagues...no choice, have to earn some money and currently tis is the best place i can find already..so bear wif it at the moment i guess...

and guess wad, its been so long since i've been to tampines..and the place change so much, sian la, i wan to eat ljs during my lunch break one la den found out it closed down already...lol..no choice anyhow find something else to eat lor..and mostly i ate oreos for my meals today..haha..i sound poor rite? but i realli duno wad else to eat...nth much nice there one..

ok after work today, sat the bus home and fall aslp...the bus was goin so slow la..and im feeling so bored,i have to go upload some songs to my phone soon..i realli need music,if not the bus rides back n forth are realli goin to bored me to death...

anw i find my eyes damn tired and my legs abit "sour" after i reach home..guess is becuz i too long nvr work already..somemore stand so long hrs today...tml working full shift agn..until tues off...

aiya..conclusion is..work now is not as fun as i worked last yr le la...and today is only the 1st day and i kinda dun like it already..i wonder how i pass the coming working days..lol

2007-11-26T11:53:00.000-08:00

I need to go to the driving centre ltr on for some bike practice to prepare myself for my test on 6 Dec =) i realli realli hope i can pass my test that day....is my bday wish for tis yr after all..after more den 6 months still not yet accomplish =.= all becuz of o lvl....

btw, i tink after that need to meet up wif hy,wc and wh..for wc's bday...

ok, lets blog abt ytd ba...i woke up super earli in the morning, cuz i was having serious nose-blocked and i cant slp..so i woke up use the comp for awhile, play 2 rounds of dota...and got bored of it..and went back to slp in the afternoon >.< ok then nth much happened already....

for today, i woke up even earlier..like 530am in the morning?! omg la..nose-blocked agn =.= shit man...i realli hate the feeling...i keep forcing myself back to slp..and i manage to slp after like 6++ and now woken up, still feel like not enuf slp. =.=

nvm..is hols anw,i can slack n rot all i wan and nobody cares..

well, to be continue after im back home tonite.. ^^

2007-11-24T23:48:00.000-08:00

Im back..nth much happened ytd, jus stayed at home whole day..so i nvr blog abt it.

As for today..as usual rotted at home the whole day...playing games, watching movies..and i tink i broke my own record...i didnt even speak more den 3 sentences today..and i realise that i haven been laughing for duno hw long already =.= will i suffer something like depressions? lol..

anw, i was online for the whole of today..but my phone n msn were still rotting like hell..i tink my phone bill for tis month mus be real cheap..haha...

ok im left wif 24 hrs to decide whether i wan to accept the offer by the uan company...haiz..its realli a tough decision to make..

thats abt it for today i tink...these 2 days jus wasted like that doing nth =.=

well, off i go....

i was that naive =(
i no longer looking forward to it every nite anymore..
i tink shld realli 4get it.

2007-11-22T23:57:00.000-08:00

Ok so i was lazy blog after dinner last nite...and actualli i slept quite earli too for duno wad reason..

Well, today after lunch i went to chinatown to the uan company as the manager called me down..so i reached there, the manager explained to me all the details...roughly..they groom artistses..

he jus wan me to either say yes or no, if it is a yes, i will need to go for an one-on-one so called audition..after that, they will call me whenever they need ppl for some advertisment shoot or something..same thing, i have the choice to take it or reject it...isnt that gd? she oso said that her company work wif tv commercials and the mediacorp...so i may get chance to step into the platform of those if i agree....cool rite?

i cant realli imagine myself appearing in some advertisment..but is a gd experience i guess if i agree to it....i need to giv her a ans by the coming mon..haiz...tis is a very hard decision..if i choose a no, my opportunity would jus be down the drain like that...if i choose a yes..am i able to take up the job? haiz....

the manager explained to me for around 30mins...and i went to vivo after that..i feel like a idiot shopping around by myself..but i actualli got myself a shirt from gap while shopping..haha...while walking around the mall, im oso giving thoughts to the offer by the uan.....it realli got me real troubled..

Anw, i saw so many ppl today for jus hanging out alone for awhile..1st i saw ql n cw of cuz at num shop...after that when i was abt to leave vivo..met ym and van...haha, and they asked me to go patronize ben n jerry as they r working there...so i went..had a ice cream and off i go...

i stopped by heartland mall on the way home to stock up my wax..and guess wad..i saw my pri sch pal...one of my besties in pri..haha...and he nearly dun recognise me...well, so coincidence to see him there la..

went home after that..den i start to emo the whole nite =.= abt the uan company thingy and oso my personal stuffs..and i realli feel like a loner for today... =( went around shopping n stuffs by myself, so pathetic la..

haiz..wadever, like who will ever giv a damn abt it...another day wasted.

bye.

i feel lonely =(

2007-11-21T19:51:00.000-08:00

Ok im back..but im still kinda lazy to update my wishlist n etc. haha....

Anw..got a phonecall from RSH tis morning..ask me down for interview at 330..finally they called...ok so around 2 plus i took a bus down and i was kinda lost..cuz i've only been there once last yr..so not familiar with the place there,nevertheless, i didnt get lost =) i reached there kinda earli..saw so many ppl sitting there waiting for interview too...the place was so packed that i dun even have a seat to sit..

So, i got interviewed and the person told me that they r jus putting me on a one month assignment which is for dec only..to help out with the festive season...is so different from wad i noe from my manager at century sq la..im gonna bug him and ask....but at least i noe i will start work when dec comes, not so bad after all....

Went home after that and spent the whole afternoon playing game n watchin video clips..so bored...and nowadays the weather realli sux..keep on raining..kinda gd for me to emo hur? lol.

I didnt even speak a single word after the interview...and when my mum jus got back from her work and tok to me, i have difficulty to speak up to her...haha..well, shall update more later...

off for dinner ^^

2007-11-21T02:20:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps! ^^
its been such a long long time since i blog,well i shld revive it back..haha...since im so free nowadays as o lvls r over..and i've been rotting at home everyday ever since then..wan to go out oso nobody to out with....haiz..

anw shall not tok abt that...well, i decided to change the skin and start blogging agn =) oh ya, i got the skin from blogskins.com's sotd thingy..so ppl dun blame me if u find alot of ppl using the same skin as me >.<

As for today, i booked a bike practice during the evening..as my tp is on the 6 Dec,coming soon and it's been so long since i touch the bike...nth much on that..as usual, practice around the circuit lor..rather bored...haha..anw went home after that n bath n change,have my dinner and went down to kovan mac to meet up with shawn..

we slacked there the whole nite lor..and i was busy choosing new skin to revive my blog and he was busy folding his straws for his special someone la..haha...went home around 11+ as he still got his red camp tml morning..so i got home and done up with the skin! ^^ but not fully done yet..

i shall update more tml morning when i woke up cuz im feeling kinda slpy already..its 2+ in the morning now >.< i will update my wishlist and etc as they are obsolete already...haha

well, goodbye ^^

2007-05-11T21:53:00.000-07:00

no sch today...slacked at home whole day..den went for bike practical in the afternoon..and i passed my circuit test..im getting closer to my goal ^^ hehe...now have to wait for my theory test and i can proceed to public road driving !

btw..toking abt bike practical...i hate the instructor for the lesson ytd..is hard to explain the scenario..but all i can say that..he made me fall to the ground...and i got my thumb dislocated i tink..luckily no more papers, if not hw am i goin to write? haha..

oh yea..toking abt papers...mye was over ytd..all i can say is that i did badly...shall not elaborate on it....anw..see ppl so happy n shouting all the way when the mye is over...why r they so excited and yet i dun feel anything ? worse still...i feel even more sian..now so free oso nth to do....i wan watch spiderman 3 and pirates of carribean..any1 wanna watch with me ??

anw...that day when hy and i were taking bus home..around my hse area..got a neighbourhood sch students came onboard..den one of the students was like sitting facing towards her frens which is oso facing in our direction....den she suddenly giggled abt something and she gossiped with her grp of frens and the whole grp was like turning back to look...at 1st i thought wad happened..so i turned back and saw a couple sitting at the end of the bus kissing...they alighted the bus few stops after....den i heard the grp was saying that.."ee..duno hw to kiss still wanna kiss in public, go home practice more la" the whole incident was hilarious....happened to be that couple oso look like abit nerd..

well thats the incident....haiz..tml gonna rot at home whole day le..

2007-05-06T03:17:00.000-07:00

Went marina sq today with jt n sheila

the drink that jt ordered at changing appetite:

kiwi soda drink

settled down at "changing appetite" when we got there..den jt need to do his hw and sheila wanted to study....so i have no choice but to bring along my maths tys to do..

i cant concentrate for long..i tink i only did two paper 1 and skipped alot of questions that i didnt noe hw to do..i realised hw much my maths standard have dropped...haiz..for now jus wish i can pass,i dun wish for more....

anw..den jt's lappy oso low batt, cant finish his hw..so we went to find pastamania for dinner..walked around after the dinner...and sheila wanted to go back home early..so we went back to kovan..she went back home n we went to have our drink...

i walked home after that..feeling kinda down n sian...wondering wads the reasons..

2007-04-30T22:38:00.000-07:00

MYE have started !! and im still here slacking =.=

anw,english paper today..it was quite challenging...luckily it is jus mid yr..cuz i doubt i can even pass...

went for bike prac in the afternoon..and surprisingly i passed after i got reprimand by the instructor..anw..now im at circuit revision...after that it will be the circuit test..and i have to wait till june 13 to have my theory test taken and carry on with my road's prac..i guess it wont be long..approximately around july i shld be able to ride on the road....few more pracs to go ^^ and i will be able to fulfil one of my bday wish for tis year....

anw..back to exams...chinese papers on wed..and im not even prepared..unlike my frens, they've done alot of bao zhang bao dao for mr tang to mark..and i have only done one, somemore is out of point =.= haiz..quite disappointed with myself..why cant i be as hardworking as them? laziness is my bad habit that still cant be cure for now.....

27 days to chinese O lvl ! i dun have much time left..

2007-04-23T19:35:00.000-07:00

MID-YEAR EXAMS is NEXT WEEK !! and wad am i doing here?
well..i am trying hard to realli study for it...but jus simply no motivation..slacking away today...

did 2.4 run today during pe...hmm..actual fact is that i actually improved quite alot..however,im still unhappy with my timing, i feels that i can do even better..anw, with that..it ends my NAPFA test results as follows:

Sit-ups - 45
Standing broad jump - 233cm
Shuttle-run - 10 to 10.1s (cant rmb)
Sit n reach - 50cm
Pull-ups - 7
2.4 - 10:28mins

well...can say the item that i improve most is pull-ups from 2 yrs ago i cant even do once till now..and oso 2.4, my timing has always been improving, still im not satisfied, I CAN DO BETTER ! btw..i heard that tis yr no road run...is that true?

argh..recently i have been realli troubled by something...and that something can say is stupid..which is HAIR ! i got lots of free time today..so i was looking at my pics in the comp...and saw the pics taken during last dec hols..damn...hw i keep my hair till that long that time ? my hair now realli sux..not only is short which is no choice becuz of sch...but oso starting to lose the shape that i normally style, which i scared most..becuz even next time i can get to keep long hair..i cant get the style to the one i got last dec hols...another thing concerning..most probably i can get my bike's license by tis yr..therefore next time...i get to drive around in bike which is cool but need to helmet which is oso another factor that im losing the style of my hair..

for now..is thick but short..so is super disgusting...and im still deciding whether to get a hair cut or wait for it to grow longer....and now it is realli boosting down my self-esteem as i always tink is ultimately ugly..haiz..get kinda depressed over it..i noe u guys tink is stupid...but tis is seriously one of the many factors why am i feeling down recently.....

of cuz there are still some other stuffs that cannot be say out..

2007-04-19T23:48:00.000-07:00

thurs...is one of the most difficult to pass day..the timetable had packed all the sianz periods together on tis day..however is oso the most knowledge u can get in thurs..as all the periods r rather important....

anw..soccer after sch! with classmates ^^ but i dun play well in it..and thats saddening...had prata with shawn after that..and he rushed home after that for duno wad reason o.O

after that went hou.mall to so called "study" with sheila n yueli...well is realli studyin for them but not for me i guess..as mostly of my materials needed are all under my sch's table...but time pass realli fast! soon it wass 10+ and we all went home seperately..

tml morning mac's breakfast ! ^^ yea....

2007-04-11T23:18:00.000-07:00

as usual...wed's timetable is the most relax throughout the week..

after sch went home n change n got rdy to go for my prac...starting was kinda reluctant..as i got a feeling that i will fail...well..my mindset was change after i noe the instructor for the lesson today....the instructor is very gd ^^ ..he is very detailed in explaining..not like the instructor i got for my 1st timer of prac two...

and guess wad..all of the students for prac two for today passed the lesson...see hw good is the instructor =)) anw..after the lesson i went to town to meet ben for my bday treat that he owe me...lol

kinda stupid carrying a helmet taking mrt n buses here n there...but i still do it in the end..had my treat at NYDC at wheelock.. =D thx for the meal..

after that..ben wanted to walk around to look for a carrier bag for his lappy...not long for searching, he bought one..and we took mrt home...

it was early...reached home only 9+.. i still got time for my homework..and her i am now..haha...and yea..u didnt see wrong, i did my homework..haha...amazing rite? im amazed that i will do too.....

anw...got chem test tml =( haiz..my weakest subj..prepare to flunk....plus..i got chem prac tml afternoon..tml will be a long day for me =(( bleh.....

2007-04-08T07:56:00.001-07:00

its been some time since i blog abt anything...was rather busy or rather, lazy to blog...but here i am anw..tis period of time happened quite a lot of things...but shallnt say it all..jus a brief of everything...

ok lets see..i rmb i went cycling with jt twice...once was late at nite..we cycled to punggol end..it was rather fun..den the other jus went back to fernvalve to have a look n went to jalan kayu to have roti prata after that..and the service there is very bad and expensive...there to have ur meals =)

hmm..other than that...oh ya..my bike license...well, i passed my prac one..and went for 2 theory lessons already..however, i failed my prac two jus recently..the instructor realli sux for that lesson..he was like mumbling to himself..dun even noe or understand wad he was trying to say...the instructions he gave were all confusing..anw..i hope that i can pass the 2nd time for mytwo which is oso tis wed...and oso hope that he not that idiotic instructor..pray hard....

come to tink of it..by the pace im goin at now...when can i realli get to drive on the road? haiz...

well then..as for ytd...shawn brought sheila, yueli and i to his church, city harvest, the skit that they performed is very well done...other den that..no comments...went home around 10pm

as for today..i stayed at home whole day...jus to watch bleach since i have nothing to do..and finally i have rush thru episode 88 to 118...all the way till around evening time..and now im having serious headache..and other den that...i am feeling very unwell throughout the whole body..watch too much bleach? lol..

anw..tml mus go back sch le..sianz...hope no attire check for my class..pray hard for that too....and tis coming sat is homecoming day le..everything is happening so fast..haiz....

o lvl chinese is coming....BUCK UP !!

oh ya..since today i have alot of time n i keep having headache so when i was resting on the bed..i thought of alot of things...and final conclusion is that..i shall not tink too much or rather anything for tis yr..jus aim for my admission to tp next yr, which oso means to do well for tis yr o lvl..and got my bike license asap, by august i hope....other den that..shall not bother much, jus let itself take its nature way....

if not it will jus give me more n more headache.....

and lastly..i will update my wishlist by tml as the current one is realli obsolete...

2007-03-14T23:47:00.000-07:00

its been some time since i blogged..been busy...anw here i am agn..

lets start from 8 march
didnt went to sch today...lazy to go =p anw after i got my mc i went to the driving centre at kovan there n got some brochures..i wan to get my license asap! haha..went to jt hse after that..played with xbox n his notebk..den jt's dad drove us to the IT fair around evening time to look at cameras...went home after that..

9 march
went to ecp with yq, jt and zy...jt went there for fishing den me went there to skate and i duno wad abt yq n zy..lol...anw..yq went home around 8pm++ den left me, jt and zy, we spent our nite there..den jt was fishing all the way...and me n zy went out skate n cycle..went home the next morning around 8am +

10 march
reached home get myself washed up n get rdy to work already...whole day i was like falling aslp..is like so tired from ytd...anw managed to get over it..went home after work n rest straight away...

11 march
finally got the whole day for me to rest..how gd is that? haha..realli got myself charged up today ^^

12 march
Happy Birthday to myself ^^ im 18 !! omg..so old already...haha..anw now im legal for so much things already..quite happy abt it..anw thx alot to those ppl who wished me either thru msg or in person...i realli appreciate it..

hmm..got chinese mock exams in the morning...paper 1 was rather manageable..den paper 2 was rather difficult la..still...i tink i can pass..but i am aiming for distinction!! cant wait to noe my standard...

anw went home n change n went out with sheila n jt..we went to cathay...sheila treated me ben n jerry and even got a small cake baked by herself n yueli..thanks alot ! ^^ den we watched movie after that.."pursuit of happyness" the place that duno hw to spell happiness...haha..i will rmb the spelling 4ever..anw..the show was rather bored yet there are some parts which are very touching..overall i wont stop ppl from watching it..hmm..went for pool after that..only jt n me playing..den sheila was like sitting there so sian..haha...sorry abt that..we went to cafe cartel at ps after that and had our dinner..tis time jt treated me..thanks to u too ^^ went back to hougang area around 11pm++, sheila went back home 1st..den me n jt went to 7-11 to buy beer..im legal to buy ! haha...we went to a place had our drink n chat...till around 3am+ den i went home....

overall..THANKS ALOT to sheila n jt for all the things ur had done for me today...i really really appreciate it..tis is the 1st time i got my bday celebrate like tis gd... ^^ i will always rmb it..

13 march
went for chinese xtra lesson in the morning..i was late as i overslept due to ytd..haha...went home n changed n went out agn with jt n sinli to far east...i bought some stuffs which cost me quite alot..anw..sinli went off 1st to meet her frens den jt's dad drove us to ms to get jt's camera...went back to jt hse after that..hang around for awhile n went home...

14 march
work today..boring...haiz..but surprisingly the time pass rather fast today..and i told them that i resigning after tis week le..next time i buy things dun have sp le =( anw went home after work and here i am..so free to blog...haha..wonder if there is any programme tml and the rest of tis week......

2007-03-07T22:59:00.000-08:00

hmm..boring day...during lessons time i kept on hoping faster all the lessons end asap...den after sch went to sch gym for awhile..

den later went sk there to play bball..long long time nvr play le...kinda lost touch already..but overall ok la..not too bad...had fun..

went home around 8pm....reached home no dinner till around 10pm..haha...and now preparing to slp soon? haha..im gonna be pig soon.....

i got the msg of wad u wanna tell me...but i duno why u r not finding me urself? haiz..for some reason i have been quite carefree recently..till today wad i heard...den i got troubled it all the day..even until now....

2007-03-06T21:57:00.000-08:00

hmm..lets start with ytd...fell aslp last nite when watching tv so didnt manage to blog...anw..ytd reached home around 7pm, before that went to sch gym and had a run..one of my targets tis yr is to get into road-run and im tryin to work hard to achieve that...

anw..today after sch went to town with hy as he wanted to buy something for their 2 months...walked around orchard lor..and went home around 6..quite a boring day la...

hmm..somehow i got a feeling that im goin to kena haircut by the sch soon...and mdm tian advice us to have gd attire tml, duno wads coming man...

the coming monday will be the day..but somehw im not excited at all...instead im feeling more n more sianz..

btw..congrats to all my gd frens...they are now all one step ahead..got into their poly courses le...haiz..envy them...but for me wad to do? who ask me dumb enuf to get retain one yr??

haiz..sometimes i realli feel like im being leftout somehw...tink of it will jus get me more n more emo only.....

2007-03-04T22:04:00.000-08:00

back from work..early dismissal today...thx to my manager for knowing that i still have sch tml..

anw...went to work in the morning today..didnt have enough sleep...keep on dozing off on the bus..den my eyes were super tired that i dun dare to wear contact lens....oso no mood to work and duno why..my voice oso changed...like i kena flu or something..haha funny...

but overall today work was quite ok la..quite slack..i keep on toking to one of my colleages...slack whenever i got the chance..haha...mus take advantage ma..if not halfway collapse how? my eyebags getting heavier le....

haiz..shall slp early tonite...i jus wish i have one whole day to rest at home..do wadever i like......

2007-03-03T23:52:00.000-08:00

finally im back...after being MIA for like around 1 week..my cpu spoilt and i have not been touching the comp till now....

anw..shall blog the stuffs some other day..

jus came home from work...super tiring..early morning still rushed for lessons in sch..haiz sianz...weekdays have sch and weekends need to work..im goin to worn out soon...i wonder when can i realli get to rest for one full day...

i tink i know the ans......

2007-02-16T20:52:00.000-08:00

hmm..today was super boring man...early morning go sch for new yr celebrations..see all the classes perform..i cant even sit still there la.....

anw..dismiss early today...nth to do..so went back home lor..once reached home..almost pull by my parents to go buy home accessories...but i jus refuse to go..den my mum threatened me to have me mop the floor tis afternoon and not to go out....

but my mum ended up sleeping in the afternoon..said tml den clean the hse..hoho..tml im working, so no need to help her...but work oso sian la..new yr eve leh..still need to work...sian la..anw..i was playing my psp the whole afternoon lor..

den around evening time getting quite sick of it..so i switched to the comp n played audition..so long nvr play..still not too bad la....

almost went out at nite to get my 2nd game for my psp de..but decided not to..continue staying at home lor...used the comp..went to ppl's blogs..haiz...i tink i shld somehw stop reading ur blog..everytime i read, i got emo..jus like jus now almost cried out oso duno for wad reason..tis is not the only time...few days ago when u told me abt the faker taggin ur blog thingy..i oso went to take a look, ended i actually teared..haiz...wads the actual reason i oso duno..4get it...

wah sian la...still need to work tml...and oso on the the 3rd day of new yr..abit lazy to go lor..but still mus go anw la....jus hope tml at least shops are open halfday..i got stuff to buy....

ok ending off..today is an totally meaningless day..jus simply wasting 24 hrs away......

2007-02-15T21:54:00.000-08:00

Hey..guess wad ?? im back on bloggin...been missing for a few days aye? haha..noe why? cuz i duno why i recently everyday after dinner, watched tv halfway will fall aslp already...as early as 9+...but i will auto wake up around midnite agn..funny...im goin to get super fat in no time if i continue like tis, eat finish den slp..omg....

anw..so im back here to blog..and the idiotic blogger FORCED me to transfer my acct to the newer version..duno wad google acct...lameshit la..so troublesome..

back to the topic...i was working on the whole of sat and sun..so have no time for anytime..left for work in the morning..and till late at nite den get back home to slp...

as for mon,tues and wed..everyday at nite, i was feeling so slpy that after dinner i will fell aslp when watching tv halfway..

oh ya..wed, which was ytd...was v.day..haiz..feeled so bored la...everyone jus seem to be busy..den only me so free..so i go trim abit of hair lor...lol..at around evening time,i browse around some blogs..haiz...jus feeling more n more down..so decided to stop.... on v.day, i didnt actually do wad i initially planned to do..i tink it shld be better tis way....but kinda feeling sad..wad to do? haiz.....

ok for today...an boring day i mus say..early in the morning play duno wad game..like for small kids to play one lor...den after that we got chem lesson..the teacher gave alot of hw..and surprisingly,the gals in my class were all complaining, till the teacher got fed up and actually scolded the whole class..lol...jus some hw ma..can make till so big problems between teacher n students....

after that was maths lesson..didnt have any lesson..miss kuck used it for rehearsing the skit for tml...the skit was ok la..then was physics and eng lessons after that...quite free..nth to do one...almost like not having any lessons like that...

went home after sch dismissal lor..haiz...go home oso nth to do..so i board the bus and had it loop around my neighbourhood while i have my slp..haha..simply wasting time la...

reached home nth to do..so play my new bought psp lor...till now late nite..hmm..tml halfday...but im jus not excited at all..sianz....

2007-02-09T23:59:00.000-08:00

hmm..quite a tiring day today...1st lesson is chem already..and we got test..sianz...but my classmates all say that quite easy..however i jus dun tink so..aiya..my chem jus simply sux la, thats why....

after that got maths lesson..boring la...still at the stupid transformation..no need to learn one lor...slept for the 2 periods..den last lesson was eng...wah oral practice..even more bored la...jus simply waste of time..noe hw to read means noe hw to read, duno means duno ma..hw to practice ??

ya..and today mt lesson, mr tang still nvr teach..already 2 lessons he nvr teached le..all cuz of someone nvr hand up the bao zhang bao dao(chinese compo)...haiz sian..at least i made the effort last nite to complete and hand in today..but if keep on lessons go on without any teaching..my mt hw to get distinction ?? haiz....

anw..waited after all the lessons for the release of o lvl results...went to the sch gym b4 that..wah...no strenght today..my body is already aching from the number of pull-ups n push-ups i did ytd when i was at punggol park skating...so jus did a little bit of abs training...and now my whole upper body is aching =.=

after that went to witness the o lvl results..for duno wad reason...i oso quite worried for them..palm sweating n stuffs..jus bo liao maybe...hmm..can say the results quite ok ba ? all my gd frens did well...ben, jt and zy..good =D happy for them..

anw..went to tm with jt after the release of results..he bought an shirt and cap from rsh and got 40% discount each cuz of my staff purchase..haha...i bought one gigantic bottle too..and i jus found out that i no need to work tml..off day...yea! celebrate..is like after so long den i get a full day rest...

went to ikea after that, walked around and have our dinner there...and courts after that..i almost stick to the psp displayed there and play non-stop till dun wanna leave..still leave la, cuz jt wanna go back meet someone le..

went back home after that and relax till now..hmm..tml still got xtra poa lessons...boring..but luckily after that no need to work =p can rest whole day...haha..

2007-02-08T23:49:00.000-08:00

its getting late already so..shall jus update abt wad happened today will do...

i thought when i woke up tis morning can start wearing back my contact lens le..but end up my eye is red n itchy for duno wad reason still...haiz..no choice..

anw..today lessons were boring..one thing is becuz of chemistry lesson, i jus simply cant do well in it..for duno wad reason and the teacher teaching is boring....after that is poa..took poa test..hmm..wad to say? i have not enuf time for the paper..and tis is the 1st time i so concentrated on doing poa paper...its a miracle....jus hope dun fail for tis test will do though..

after lessons..waited in the class for awhile for chem practical...is actually boring, jus burning of things..anw, our practical were drag..till around 4pm den dismiss..but luckily im not rushing anywhere unlike hy =p

went home changed n went to ben hse to meet him and andy in the nite for skating..we went punggol park to skate for awhile..nvr realli speed, jus casual skating..but is gd enuf to cover my urge for skating so long time ago...and we oso went to do some pull-ups and standing broad jump..haha..quite bo liao oso la....

after that went home at around 10pm..faster rushed home bath n prepare to do my bao zhang bao dao (chinese compo) which i owe few days ago that made mr tang super angry..and there is actually his lessons tml, so i have no choice but to do it..i did actually manage to finish it...BUT i still got one more yet to complete, all jus becuz i failed my third chinese and i got one xtra to do..haiz sian lor...no choice that one is still yet to do..hope he shld be ok with me at least done one......

its getting late..time to rest my eyes and hope tml can get to wear back my contact lens already..

and tml is the o lvl results le...somehw i jus dun realli care abt it..not realli say cuz im not involved is jus becuz of so many things happened..so i will jus wish to my good frens...u noe who u are.. =) yea..so GOOD LUCK !

2007-02-07T23:01:00.000-08:00

Hey ppl..guess wad ? im back agn...changed skin..some sort that i did the whole skin myself..so im quite satisfied with it =)

anw..lots of things happened since i last blogged till now...
shall summarise it the next post....

tis blog is back alive..so ppl, do check back often ya ? =)

2006-11-10T16:02:00.000-08:00

ok...2 weeks of brigdging is finally over..

actually i oso not sure wad i have done during these 2 weeks...jus go to sch have lessons lor...on 7 nov, our class went to lido to watch sinking of japan..free..but the seatings sux la...anw..the show..can say quite bored,no storylines...overall still ok de la....

last 4 days of the bridging...got ss n poa course..ss course was conducted by mr francis...wah..tok n tok..sian lor..sit there and endure 4 2 hrs...but he is quite a nice guy la..that is 8/11, 9/11, 10/11...

for poa course..was conducted by mr frank ngoh..hmm..we played a game...something like monopoly, but is modified de..somehw it seems like is more fun den monopoly...anw..for both poa course on 8/11 and 9/11, we played that game lor..can we really learn hw to manage money from that game? i have no idea..but it was rather an addictive game...haha..

ok ytd was the last day...got back our report bk..and it officially marks the start of our holidays...however, my mood still jus as bad..and the mini toons job i cant get, they only hiring O lvl studens..damn biased lor =.= haiz....

and the escape one..even worse la..went for the interview...the person shoot me till siao la...shall not elaborate on it, tink of it oso bek chek....so now, left with no choice need to go back gift a name to work agn meh? haiz..zou yi bu suan yi bu ba...since its holidays le, relax 1st ba....

hmm..my mood have nvr been gd all these while..cause of it? im not sure too...maybe is cuz of the job thing ba..haiz...everything jus not goin my way la....

anw..today, went swimming in the morning..finally got the sun and a little tanned now...after so long, i observe that every morning the sun is strong but once reach after afternoon time, it will become very cloudy and even rain....so today im intelligent enuf to go for swimming in the morning =) and jackpot..is raining cats n dogs now....

maybe go running ltr on with ben.........
oh ya..mentioning of him...Happy Birthday benji again ! =) 9 nov...i did wish him on that day ok?

haiz..everything jus not goin the way i want...im goin to break down soon..

2006-11-02T23:26:00.000-08:00

haiz sian...

these 2 days no programmes de..so after sch jus went home straight lor..den at home nth to do den slp in the afternoon lor..

at nite woke up watch tv, dinner den that ends these 2 days le...hw meaningless can it be? like that at nite i no need to slp le lor, super awake..

anw..i dun tink i can get the job le la =( so many days le..the person oso nvr contact me...haiz 4get it..

2006-10-31T22:22:00.000-08:00

okok..today...

had physics and mt for today's lesson...for physics, mr chee came in..hmm..i dun realli like him la...but honestly i mus say..he teach quite gd..very understandable...den for mt..no teachers came..but mr tang set us to do compo..

after lessons went back home super restless..duno why so tired too...anw, reached home rushed to bath n change n rushed out to meet jolin and elaine to go out..

we went to paradiz at first..initially wanted to play pool la..but they cant go in...elaine's stupid idea =.= jk....anw..we went for movie instead..deathnote..hmm..rather nice i mus say...was super cold in the theatre btw..and and...i tink im goin to rent or buy the comics of deathnote to understand the story more =)

after the movie..when we were goin out of the cineplex..guess who i saw ? kelvin lim,brandon chua and wenjie..ok shall not elaborate on it..no mood to anw...

my mood jus not very gd recently la...haiz..very fan and bek chek..firstly is the job thing la...i doubt i can get it le..secondly is the attitude they gave ??

anw..took train back to cp...den 2 ppl jus run away in different directions..wad am i suppose to do? who to chase after? i hesitate very very long..till in the end i duno why i decide to go home instead...my mind is complicated ok? =.=

well..i tink thats all abt today le ba.....

am i regretting my actions ? i shld do something instead rite ? sigh..wad am i actually tinking ? do i realli start to care le ?

2006-10-30T22:21:00.000-08:00

hmm..ok today 1st day of bridging...

wah sian! 1st day of bridging and our class got attire-check?! holidays leh..last yr bridging oso dun have lor...my gosh..of cuz i sure kena de ma...so many weeks since i cut my hair..mr singh dun even need to say anything..i volunteer to write my name myself...

anw..the lessons boring was bored la..i almost slept all the way thru...ok, after sch went cp with ben to make his debit card..after that we went to pasir ris to get my job application form..aaron went down too...

so in the end..aaron's fren get to go for the job interview straight after he submit the form as he wan to work in the carnival ma...but for me, i wan to work in rides..so the person asked me to leave the form..and wait for phone call to ask me go for the interview...wah sian lor..like that i dun even noe if i can get the job =.=

went back home very fan la..keep on tinking abt the job...anw, reached home change le and went to cut hair with ben..

wah...my hair rather short leh..i abit dun like it lor..is holidays leh...and my hair is so ugly..sigh...wad to do? who ask me to be in tis sch ??

ok thats abt all for today ba...haiz..im still very fan abt the job thing la... =(

2006-10-29T22:58:00.000-08:00

been rather busy recently ? or maybe jus lazy to blog la..wadever...anw..the details of everything will be post on some other days..

jus tok abt today...hmm..woke up early in the morning and went to ben's church..there is a purpose why am i goin....anw..ok went back home at late afternoon..jus bath finish mus change and go to my grandma hse le..sianz....

ok at there..as usual la..nth i can do...wan watch tv oso cannot, as my cousins will be there playin like mad n shouting around till u cant even heard any sound from the tv..wan to slp oso cannot...like very rude to the elderly like that..sian la..nth to do de..ok end up got play chess with one of my cousins..always win de..oso not fun...den played the old maid card..rather bored card game la, jus to kill time anw...

went home around 10..reached home bath n prepare to slp le..rather tired..den somemore tml still got sch when other ppl have their holidays started le....haiz..

2006-10-22T23:53:00.000-07:00

ok today...

stayed at home whole day doing nth agn..haiz sian...can say nvr talk more den 4 sentences ba..and i oso dun feel like toking oso..sooner or ltr i realli will gao zhi bi liao....easily fed up oso la..tink got serious mood swing problem le..

lol..well thats all for today...hmm..next week..messy messy schedules...everything still not yet properly plan..sigh...why everytime everything jus so last minute? cant stand it sia..

next week..tues is hari raya no need go sch..den if im not wrong fri oso no need go sch...wah..one week only got 3 days of sch..rather cool..

but...when ppl holiday le..me still got bridging..haiz..sian...bridge wad? last yr oso got bridging..den in the end get the result..bridge till where? i still retain ma...lame sch..nvr get result bridge wad head? =.= wad if tis yr happens agn ? haizz........

2006-10-21T23:32:00.000-07:00

ok..spent the entire nite watching tv...now broadcasting news so come online for awhile, ltr goin back to watch agn...

anw..my mum jus nvr fails to treat me as a maid la...order tis and that..she realli dun even need to walk one step lor...got quite fed up with it la..still got my grandma called n nag..gosh...tag team ?

something jus flash thru my mind..ytd someone told me an incident...hmm..wad can i say? tis person giv quite a rather gd impression to me in the beginning...in the end, when i get to noe tis person more...i jus hate every actions and movements tis person do la..i wont deny that im beginning to hate more n more...especially the incident that someone told me abt tis person..gosh...wad an stupid excuses la....i jus pity someone..who still giv in so much to tis person and tis person still nvr notice it..

well..wad can i say? nth gonna do with me too..and i dun wanna care abt it..is not my life...i shall care more abt my own life..haiz..speaking of my own life...yawnz..wan to slp le...how boring can it get? and i tink im realli goin to suffer depression or something le la..can say nvr speak more den ten sentences today ba....

if tis carry on agn..im gonna be an introvert agn like last time..very anti social...jus kept everything to myself..in chinese we said zhi bi zheng la...lol..or rather u yu zheng ? haha..any physcologist can treat me asap b4 the conditions get worse?

well..craps craps and more craps...lazy to say anymore oso la..im goin back to watch my tv and slp.....

2006-10-21T17:12:00.000-07:00

haiz..boring day...

woke up in the morning found that my mum no need to go for work today..sian ½...stayed at home do nth agn la..

den my mum only noe hw to command me do tis and that..she herself sit there like empress dowager like that =.= when did i become a maid ?

cannot tahan my mum so i decide to go out for swimming..today's sun not very strong...cant get tanned. =( anw, went back home after that..

on a long bus trip,nth to do..so i decided to be lame and msg alot of ppl n wish them happy deepavali =) hmm..how come everyone seems so shocked? wads wrong? we r living in singapore, a multi-racial country...lol..and i found out alot of ppl still duno my new no.

haiz..back home agn doing nth...go out anyone ??

2006-10-20T20:08:00.000-07:00

ok here is a summary of everything....

since 11 oct, one week study break after the Ns..everyday at home rot, nvr even step out of the hse...no programmes ma..or i shld say no frens to ask out with and stuffs...

anw..went sentosa on 17 oct with yueli, yiqing and elaine...did nth much there ba i tink..play water and swim? the whole day jus past like that and i totally have no idea where i spent all my time on..btw..the swimming pool at the resort there is so cool..the water is so clean, when u swim inside the water, u can open up ur eyes and u can feel ur eyes so refreshing...but kena chased out by the guard there la..cuz we r not staying there ma...

finally went back to sch on 19 oct which is ytd...nth much happened between ytd n today..

haiz..i duno why im feeling super duper down recently...sometimes dun even feel like talking..kept myself at home too long le? till now suffer depression ar? perhaps moodswing ba..

very fed up on some incidents recently too...shall not elaborate on it..

ok...and tonite..nobody will be at home except myself..meaning i will settle everything myself, including doing hsework? haiz..seriously im feeling lonely..who is willing to be there to pei me jus to spend some time??

who will be there to brighten me up when im feeling down ? =.=
who will ever do that ? he/she oso not my who...i shall be independence..

my life only contains black n white and nth else...

2006-10-12T22:59:00.000-07:00

haiz..2nd day of holidays..sian lor...seriously speaking, i rather go back sch..at home nth to do de..so bored...

anw..i oso have no idea how i passed today de...i dun tink i got do anything and there goes a day...how meaningless can it be? sianz...

btw..tonite duno why my mood very bad...was still ok in the day de leh..ytd nite oso...wad exactly is wrong with me? mood swings ar? only at nite? haiz..have bad sore throat and ulcers at the tongue..so difficult to speak la...if can i rather dun talk..its painful....

wadever it is..being so free is bad...thoughts keep coming in..sigh...it sux.

2006-10-11T22:33:00.000-07:00

RAH !

after so long..finally im here to blog...actually dun realli have the mood to,but still shall blog a summary of everything that happened?

ok so..my n lvl is finally over...well..i jus dun sense anything at all..totally no sense of excitement after exams...why? i tink cuz im still worrying very much abt my results, which will only get it at late dec..haiz...still so long away....

anw..the papers are ok ba i tink...but i have not much confidence in poa, ss, chem and maths paper 2..haiz..maths i thought i can do well la, but end up the maths paper 1 was quite easy but paper 2 i made quite a few careless mistakes...haiz...it jus made me have no confidence in my maths anymore...as for chem..kind of predicted ba? as science is consider one of my weakest subject le..but the physics paper was easy till i have abit of confidence in science,1st time thought my science will get a gd grade..however, the chem paper jus crushed everything la....haiz..

as for poa..of cuz no need to say de...totally giv up de ma..so can throw one side...but at least i try to write as much crap as i can tink of till the whole page of the ledger r filled up..heh...my class ppl like all giv up poa le lor..paper jus start, u can see heads coming down n knockout...haha..as for ss paper, like i mentioned b4 le..the chapters i studied so hard didnt came out..instead came out the one that i totally nvr touch de....

sigh..tink so much got wad use? all the papers r over le, i oso cant do anything abt ut le...all i can do now is wait for the result....haiz..no confidence at all lor..im jus so dumb la, one extra yr le still cant make it? might as well dun live....

as for now..got a week holiday till next thurs...haiz..wad to do at home? no one to ask out oso..haiz...thought of it..am i an asshole or wad? i jus found out that so many ppl actually hate me and if i wanna count hw many frens i actually have, i tink one hand can do....sigh..am i realli that sux?

jus start of holidays and im falling sick? how crap....

2006-09-28T22:18:00.000-07:00

hey everyone..here i am...

26 September

no sch today..so went to meet jt,elaine n francee in the afternoon at bishan...had our lunch there 1st..after that went to the library n study..i actually did my work...kinda feel contented..

anw..went home after that...very early..actually the purpose of coming out today is to go starbucks de lor..end up nvr...nvm..reached home nth to do and the day jus past like that...wad a wasted holiday..

27 September

ATTIRE CHECK TODAY !! and i was lucky enuf to escape..WOOTS !! >.< my class only left wif 3 guys after the check and im one of them...realli lucky la,others all got caught..

anw..had soccer agn during pe...i no choice have to join the 502s in it...how can i click with them after so much things had happened? but after all still ok la..till got one part when i am abt to score, got one pig come n ramp me away..

damn! compared to me, his much bigger size than me la, but i didnt fall, instead he got the impact of almost falling too, fascinating..anw, i got a feud with tis freaking pig la, till now still not solve...i realli feel like hitting him liao lor..however hold back everything...i had already held back all my anger for around 1 yr + le, wad else i cant hold back ?? but jus feel damn unhappy abt it..

i tink thats abt it ba....

28 September

nth much today..after sch went to library to study, did last yr maths prelim paper...quite fun doing it..

went home around 4++...kinda early..reached home, nth to do..den tink of alot of things lor...haiz sian...anw, n lvl is jus 3 more days..am i prepared? can say i have started my revision? actually i myself oso duno..well...i did quite alot of work these few days..but that is definitely not enuf...i need more revision..

haiz...jus 3 days more..shld i say i look forward to it? cuz after that i can play like crazy..however on the other hand, for my standard now..wad if i buang ? already 1 more yr le and i still cant make it ?? freak la...someone help me pls? force me to study? maybe jus study with me will do.....

well..thought of alot of things today...haiz..but tis isnt the time i shld be doing tis..i shld be studying...all these things jus wait till after my papers le den settle ba..

ENDURE and STUDY !! I mus score well..KAMPADE !!

2006-09-24T22:27:00.000-07:00

hmm..nth much...went to cut hair agn in the afternoon =.= sian la..jus cut 2 weeks ago only..now need to cut agn,all jus cause of scare sch catch n get slope la..retarded sch...

anw..after cutting, came back home n watch tv...till around nite time ba..den duno why my mood suddenly become very bad..easily paranoid n irritated....

im out of here.....

2006-09-23T23:56:00.000-07:00

hello ppl..its been sometime since i blog..been kinda lazy...sorry..anw..here i am.

today..stayed at home whole throughout the day ba...initially jt wanted to go somewhere de starbucks wif yq,elaine n me de..den yq at outside study and elaine wanted to slp? =.= so in the end everything cancelled la...so i at home whole day do nothing lor..sianz..

at nite..my mum asked me go hougang mall shop shop..its been so long since i agree to it..once in a life time sia..lol...anw..went there have dinner den walk around lor..nth much...after that went NTUC bought quite alot of stuffs..and i become the slave, everything oso i carry..

reached home quite late le..bath n use comp for awhile...tink gonna slp soon..haiz..tink tml gonna be free whole day agn..do nth...

n lvl is coming le..one more week only...am i prepared? i tink im still far from it...but how? i jus duno where to start my study from..someone help me pls ?? seriously...

22 September

nvr go sch today..thought got attire check...end up got the news, not my class tio de attire check..haiz wasted...means im goin to get cut next week le..

anw..went to polyclinic to get mc early in the morning..by 9+ i got it le...so i went to heartland mall to sign up for my debit card..tink im getting it in 2 weeks time..after that went home change n went to ps to buy mp3 player...but no stock..so no choice..i left my number there n went back home..

in the afternoon jt called up..and we went to collect his mp3 player...after that went to ms to see if there got stock for the mp3 player..there is! cool man! so i stayed there to decide between zen neeon 2 or zen v plus for quite sometime...in the end i got the zen v plus..its nice =) went home after that and jt went to meet other ppl...

reached home..trying to figure it out...wah! 1gb still not enuf for me aye? scary..no choice la..try to squeeze in everything that i wan lor....and i tink i oso getting my phone soon..izzit a gd or bad thing that all of a sudden so many things are coming up ? anw..byebye....

2006-09-17T17:17:00.000-07:00

been lazy to blog the past few days..but too free today so here i am..a summary of everything as i 4got some details le...

11 September

went to bugis with jt,elaine and yq after sch..went there to search for elaine's clothes...after rounds and rounds around the place..finally she got something...went home around 7+

my mood was not gd today..i duno why oso...mood swing ?

12 September

went to elaine hse after sch with jt to help her choose wad to wear for the forbidden city..actually is mostly all jt helping..i jus went there look look only ba...den her ah gong came to her hse when we were still there..so weird la..anw..her ah gong speak ang mo de? stylo aye? haha...

anw..around evening time..she need to rush to meet her frens n to the forbidden city le..so jt and i went home after that...

13 September

hmm..hang around in sch after dismissal...till around 3+ den jt and i went to kovan to shop around and went to his hse after that...we played soccer..had my dinner there..till around 10+ den i went home...

14 September

went out with zy n jt around evening time..jt got his mp3 player to the company for fixing...den we went to ms to buy zy's mp3 batt...after that walked around ms for awhile..

went home after that....

15 September

francesca's birthday today..HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you !! =)

after sch today..went out to have prata with jt, lil, hy, xue e, ry and jac...hang around in sch till quite late den jt had to go back home change for the champion nite..and so i followed along to his hse slack awhile and went home after that...

at nite..supposingly im meeting elaine and pl to go buy stuffs for the party tonite..met elaine outside sch gate and happened to be that tis yr champion nite so early end..so jt and yueli came along too...we went to hougang mall to get the cake n stuffs

after that went to some multi-storey carpark and had our party there...hmm..i mus say is not realli a sucessful one..haiz...sad..

went home early den expected after the party..haiz...moody today agn..

16 September

stayed at home whole day..oso not sure wad im doing...maybe jus watched tv n use comp..and the whole day jus pass like that..haiz..how meaningless...

17 September

as usual stayed at home whole day..but at least i cleaned up the room a little today..did some housekeeping..quite satisfied with it =)

haiz..i tink today is the last day that i can slack n relax le..left 14 days more to n lvl le...am i prepared ? im gettin worried...

i jus duno wad u tinking..u r jus making me hate u more n more..and im not the only one who tink so..be more mature la..i tink if u carry on like that, u will find urself have lesser n lesser frens....

2006-09-11T20:36:00.000-07:00

nth that i wanna blog...

sorry for the content below..jus wan to vent out my mood...

FUCK! msn is down ?! initially i thought my acct got hack agn..scare me...screw the msn la..why will down de?
and my mood now only have one word to describe..FUCK !! ..i jus cant tink of any to describe le....outta here..

2006-09-08T19:37:00.000-07:00

its been sometime since i blog..kinda busy or lazy ba...haha..anw..here i am le..

4th September

hmm..had my 1st n lvl paper today...chinese paper 1 and 2..haiz..i was so afraid of it the nite b4 ...

den early in the morning reach sch..i got even more tense up..abit feel like crying le la...im jus scared that history repeats..haiz..but still have to take it anw....

anw..the papers are ok..hope to get an p2 for it..best if i can get p1 la...well..i do feel so relaxed after the paper....

5th September

had chinese listening in the morning..as usual..they use 92.4FM for the listening...
den after the listening..chiong ss lor...as the paper is in the afternoon..in between still have a few hrs to study for it...i mugged for it..till when the paper was abt to start, i got realli stressed up..keep on goin to the loo...

anw..jus when i saw the paper, it was a total disappointment la..the chapter that i spent so much time to mug on didnt come out, instead only the chapter that i spent only around 30mins listen to ppl say abt it de, came out....

haiz..i tink my ss will buang le? but weird thing is when after the paper, came out of the examination hall
, i found out from my friends that i actually had quite alot of points written into the paper..jus that not enough time for me to finish..so i had no choice that i have to write some in point-form....

anw...i oso dun wanna tink too much abt it le la..the papers were already over..tink too much oso useless..went home with the party mood =)

ya..almost 4got..elaine n francee came to my hse in the late afternoon..nvr stay for long...den they went back home le, and i pei francee home and i went home le.....

6th September

ok..today morning went to kovan de mac to meet yq, elaine n jt..it was yq's idea to have breakfast there de...in the end, she woke up so late..and she is the last one to reach and of cuz im the 1st one to reach agn =.=

anw..didnt get to have mac breakfast la..so bo bian had mac-chicken meal le went to jt hse...lol..initially they wanted to study ? but after the papers, im totally in the holiday mood la..and jt oso not much into studying...end up nobody studied? haha..is it my fault ? sorry...

not long after at jt hse...yq n elaine left le..left me n jt le lor..we did alot of things..xbox-ing, soccer, skates? haha..and badminton...that i stayed at jt hse for dinner..and his mum prepared lots of fruits la...wah..super healthy lifestyle today aye? haha...

went home around 10 +

7th September

hmm..went to fetch francee from xinghua pri ( my pri sch =] ) to my hse..cuz she got cip there in the morning...btw, is fetch the right word to use? haha...

anw..she got to my hse changed n washed her hair...used the super old hair-dryer i have at home..lol...got a weird weird smell la..but still can use..i tink? haha....anw..we left for kovan station to meet pl at around 12+...

went to ps 1st...initially wanted to watch movie de la..but no tix for love wrecked le...so nvr watched, we went walked around instead, went to take neos..gosh..is like the 3rd time i took in my lifetime? haha..i last time taking neos is realli like hell to me la..im so scared of taking it de..but today i dun feel much fear when taking..guess i overcome le ba...

ate alot...the BK meal is full enuf for the lunch le..but when we were half-way walking from cine to far-east..got the urge to buy ice-cream to eat la...haha..after reach far-east le still buy bubble tea to drink...gosh..unhealthy lifestyle today..all the sweet things..will i get diabetes? haha...

anw..we shop at far-east for almost 4 hrs to look for pl's clothes...francee do tried hard to help her find aye? haha...i jus pei them walk almost single shops in the far-east to find..i tink the shop will blacklisted us next time le, i guess..especially the 1st level...haha

after all that, francee was so late for her tuition at the nite la..so we rushed back to my hse n took her stuffs and cabbed to her hse lor..and i headed to j8 to collect my jeans after that n headed back home le...

8th September

met sab, jac, lil and miss kuck at hougang station in the morning n we headed to chinatown there de delifrance to study..hmm..the food there are sumptous..but expensive...but all miss kuck paid for it..i feel kinda guilty leh..hy joined us when we were abt to leave...

anw..i rushed back home in the afternoon and ready to go to the CMPB building for the deferment...my dad drove me there..wow..tis is like the 5th time i get to sit his car? he very niao de la..everytime wan him drive me to somewhere, he oso say busy or dun wan de...

anw, luckily he drove me there n accompany me there for the deferment..the letter stated that i have to take the medical check which will take around 4hrs..end up reached there..the person jus asked me to log in and defer..and THATS ALL !! nvr even took more den 30mins =.= and im so scared that wad r they goin to go for the medical check, is like goin to be 4hrs? oso gd la..the person said that taking N or O lvl no need to go for the medical check yet..unless im in poly or wad le....

anw..my dad drove me back home agn lor..had lunch at nearby coffee shop...and went back home rot le..and is only like 3pm in the afternoon....haiz..rot till nite la..nth to do de.....

haiz..why do i still tink so much? argh !!

2006-09-02T22:09:00.000-07:00

ytd morning went for chinese lesson...till around noon time den go back home..wah teachers' day but mdm gwee still teach wor..hardworking aye? haha...

anw i jus reach home not long..received a call from jt..den rush off to ps le lor...met jt, yq and elaine at ps de ljs..den went for pool n arcade at paradiz...den went for movie lor...watched devil wears prada =.= can say overall still ok la..but some parts realli kinda bored...can slp..after the movie elaine wanted to go back home..den we went to cp lor...yq,jt and i went to starbucks sit sit lor..den elaine went back home change n come out buy dinner for her parents...den we walk around cp lor..went back home after that...

reach home bath use comp for awhile den went to slp le as today got lesson too....

today as usual..went for chinese lesson in the morning...but duno why i feel kinda tired today..sleepy during the class but nvr slp la..after lesson went home lor...

sian..nth to do..so went for swimming in the afternoon..no sun today...so cant get tanned..haiz...bo bian lor..jus swim a few laps den went home le....monday is the papers le..haiz...i have yet to study..but i still rather daze in front of the monitor than go study..i jus cant study alone at home la...i need someone pei me go out study....haiz..but jus no one...

so i left with tml to study le..jus wish i can realli force myself to study...today jus feel so tired..tink maybe slp early today n wake up late tml...quite long nvr wake up late le..

my mood jus so sux recently...argh!

2006-08-31T21:56:00.000-07:00

hmm..today teachers' celebration...haiz..sian...everyone seems so busy after the celebration..all went out shopping or go pri sch with frens...and me? i stay in class rot...til around 1+ den left the sch..haiz...drag time to go home la..reach home around 3+ ....

when at sch keep on finding ppl to go out la...but jus no one to find....haiz..den around 4+ francee actually called me up and asked me out..wah..i quickly chiong out of the hse as i thought i can finally go out and no need to rot at home whole day le..but when i reach the mrt station...she called up agn that she actually got tuition..so i bo bian i go walk alone lor...and francee if u read tis..i nvr blame u ok? its realli ok...im glad enuf that someone actually rmb me still and ask me go out... =)

anw..i went to bugis to collect my newbie membership card..and they now got sales...member got 30% off wor..there starts my shopping spree...i bought a jacket there..den i went to j8 to see jeans...and i actually bought it..wah..i actually still wan to buy more shirts n stuffs de..but i control myself...if not die..but these 2 items are exp enuf for me to become bankcrupt le....haiz..need to save up money le la....i still got things want to buy....

so after all..i over spent...and im broke now..shall not tok more abt it..its bad...shopping spree kills...and im dead..haha....anw..tml teachers' day and i still got lessons =.= haiz...and mon n tues is the papers le..no joke...mus really chiong liao..need to study....so tis weekend instead of wanting to go out..shld stay put somewhere n study le....i mus force myself to study!! study !! shall sleep early tonite..tml still got lessons....

oh ya..and my prelims results are back le...hmm..i mus say not realli gd la...but compare to mid-yr i did much much better le...although i mid-yr still got study abit n prelims i more slack...but results turn out to be the other way round...weird..anw..is not gd enuf la....mus realli chiong le..I MUS study !

2006-08-26T21:27:00.000-07:00

haiz..how bored can my life get? stay at home whole day n rot lor...watch tv, use comp n play ps2..nothing much today....but kinda feel unwell..ok off i go....

jus cant keep off the thoughts..haiz...

2006-08-25T22:52:00.000-07:00

hmm..today got back chinese paper..not well done...but still acceptable la..at least is better den my mid yr...and i got highest in class for prelim chinese oral =.= amazing...i dun even noe wad i actually had said to get 37/40 wah..tink of it..minus 3 marks off only sia..but it jus makes me feel more stress la..cuz the actual n lvl chinese oral, i dun tink i did well lor...haiz..wad for gd in prelim but not in the actual n lvl rite? makes no sense...is jus equal that im still not gd as ppl jus look at ur n lvl ma..who will go find out abt ur prelims?

same case la..last yr i got p2 for chinese for prelims..but got an p3 at n lvl...wtf..if i continue get that 2 means i wont retain too le...haiz i jus feel so stress abt it la..but shld i say that i actually glad that i retained ? as tis yr class of mine is so so much better den my previous class which is the sec5s now...shall not elaborate more abt it....

anw..after sch got physics xtra lesson..mr tee went for course so mr tham came in...finish one worksheet can go le...went to kovan 1st with jt, hy, jac , lil, sab, and cy..mich pangseh halfway..aiya..i dun care abt her anw...den jac, lil and sab went there to cut hair..den hy n i have to rush off halfway to j8 as hy's mum was rushing him le...

so we went there walk walk lor..and i tink i found the pair of jeans i wanna buy le...goin there agn to buy some other time....went home around 6+ ba..hy's mum fetch me home...wah so paiseh leh..duno why but i jus feel that...i feel so xtra..anw..its been so long since i have sit an car...it jus feel so comfortable..haiz..wish i can get my license n drive soon....

k...anw..reach home bath le den feel kinda tired le so went to slp lor....till 8+ den wake up..had dinner n watched tv lor..and i duno why i very easily get annoyed n paranoid these few days....haiz..

den tml weekend le..tis week pass so fast, its jus like one click and the weekend is here...well..i jus feel so sian n stress up instead of excited abt it...cuz it jus means one day closer to n lvl le..im totally not prepare yet...and oso i have no programmes tml..tink staying home n rot whole day le...sighs!

damn..i jus dun feel rite...is something realli wrong ? sixth sense ? or jus im tinking too much ? and wad for i go tink so much when is totally useless anw ? haiz..i jus hate myself ! argh !!

2006-08-24T22:26:00.000-07:00

hmm..today got back chem paper...till nowthe only paper given back to see..anw..my result rather bad la..but i got improve...still fail although,expected de ma...anw..didnt realli affect my mood today la....

so today still quite ok..till after sch..i suddenly jus feel so sian...everything oso dun feel like doing..den hy n jac still stay in class to revise maths..i join them lor..but not doing much as my brain is not even working la...jus keep on dazing there..feeling so empty and sian...went home around 3+ lor..

so from after sch till now i have still been holding on to the sian sian mood..everything oso dun feel like doing..jus sit there n daydream....anw..today no attire check, wonder abt tml....and hope to get back more papers..

haiz..jus not feeling rite..and i hate tis kind of mood...awaiting for the better to come....

2006-08-23T22:51:00.000-07:00

hmm..today morning do the aces dance during pe =.= haiz..everything was so bored...anw..today lessons rather bored la..no teachers teached oso..den our papers still haven get back any...haiz..wad is the principal doing holding our papers back?

anw..today i abit sod la...in class keep on laughing till tears oso come out..its weird as it have been a very very long time since that happened...but that actually makes my mood rather gd today...den after sch in canteen waiting for chinese xtra lesson to start...den hor..got leeched away 3 bucks =.= luckily my mood was gd today la....anw..after the chinese lesson , duno is today laugh too much or wad..suddenly jus cant even smile le...mood down a little bit too le..

after the chinese lesson...went to jt hse to lend the guitar from him and went back sch to let ben take care of it and i went to cp to buy the guitar strings n pick and back to sch agn to put on the strings n tune...so play abit of the guitar till almost goin to 8 le den left sch...reach home 9+ le..kinda tired already....btw, jus hope tml wont have attire check for my class..the chances are very very high...its so scary..

aku sungguh merinduimu... =(

2006-08-22T22:37:00.000-07:00

haiz..another day had passed...never feel any better ever since that day..certainly im goin to rmb that for some time.....anw..today..lessons still quite slack..no papers were given back yet....so the teachers oso got nth much to do..

haiz...i noe my maths result le..it jus so so disappointing la...jus pass only lor..den i noe my c.science is gone case le...den c.humans..i dun have much confidence in it oso la...poa is already throw one side le..so dun even need to tok abt it...left with eng n chinese...

well..for eng..today mrs ng actually shocked me out of nowhere by praising me that my eng paper 2 did quite well...wah..am i dreaming? mrs ng actually praised me? is like i had been blacklisted by her since last yr till now la...anw..for that actually did brighten up my day a little..den chinese...noe nth abt it..tink wait for friday ba...

anw..hang around in the sch after lessons till around 3++ den went home...oso drag back home de la...cause i noe that i reach home got nth to do le..oso cant watch anime le as youtube dun have the rest episodes le....sigh..bo bian lor...spent the whole nite watching tv instead with my mum....till now no programmes nice le den i come to use comp agn....

haiz..sianZ ! everything jus dun seem to go rite for me la....and i still cant stop tinking..well..the more i tink..the more questions i got in my mind...but doubt i will kinda get a chance to ask it.....anw..zo yi bu kan yi bu lor..wad to do ?? sigh.....

2006-08-21T23:10:00.000-07:00

ah gosh ! youtube have no more episodes of the anime im watching de liao..the remaining episodes i have to go use programme n dl le..although is better quality la..but it will take a long time to dl leh...haiz..gosh..so tis anime jus help me kill time for 3 days only =.= tis is bad....im getting free agn and will start to tink alot agn..sianz...haiz..

2006-08-21T21:36:00.000-07:00

hmm..today...can say overall isnt that gd ba...k in the morning no attire-check cuz the jap students are here...well..safe for today den..anw , today almost all teachers dun have lessons yet la..except tian =.=...

den we still cant get back our papers yet..but all the teachers said it was bad...den today after sch..mrs ng still shout for me from quite a distance away...den she questioned me whether i did study n stuffs la..so i noe from her that my chem results are bad...haiz..from the outside i was still smiling la..but inside i realli feel kinda sad la...the way she speaks to me..is like im those out of hope de la....sigh..im realli getting look down by every ppl le..

anw..went to hougang point to have lunch with jt, hy, mich, lil, jac, ry , and sab....hmm..starting i still quite energetic la and in someway more cheerful la..but towards the end i started to quiet down..and oso mood changin le..mood swing? who knows..? anw..went back to sch and i realli totally moodless le..jus no mood for everything..jus sit down there dun feel like speaking a word and thoughts jus keep coming....

anw, went home after that n watch anime till now lor..well..can say..today overall mood is jus bad bad bad...especially from the afternoon onwards..btw, tml onwards shld start to get back papers le...jus hope my mood wont get even worse ba....

is all the thoughts worthwhile ? it jus making me so painful..i jus wish i can go for brainwashing..haiz...

2006-08-20T22:19:00.000-07:00

hmm..today...can i say is rather meaningless.? haha...i jus spent my whole day watching anime from youtube la....its nice so im totally engross in it..jus keep on watching n watching...

but got went out in the late afternoon to cut hair la..cuz now prelims over le..risk of attire check is super high..no choice have to cut...haiz..jus when i starting to satisfied wif my hair and i have to cut it agn =.= tis freaking sch..why care so much abt hair? and that shoe oso la..tml im goin to wear that old raggart sch shoes..its painful lor...stupid sch..wad x=q? where is the q in the shoe? where is the q in the sch canteen's water tap ? haha...

anw..watching anime the whole day jus totally kills off my awareness of my surroundings n time..and i oso nvr go tink so much...isnt that cool? but i dun tink tis will last long as the speed im watching it now, the anime will watch finish sooner or ltr de ma....well..for the moment..is gd...so dun care so much la, anw im off to watch anime agn..haha =)

2006-08-19T23:07:00.000-07:00

hmm..am i that tired ytd? i cant believe i went back to slp agn last nite 12+ den tis morning 9+ wake up...haiz..did nth agn..thought will go out today la...in the end nvr..

initially like mich , cp and ben were asking me out today actually...? den in the end all cancel le? gosh...so stay at home whole day lor...i oso duno wad im doing the whole day la...jus noe that since around late afternoon..i started to watch anime...kinda addicted le..so the nite time pass quite fast as i am too engross in the anime....sianz..i jus totally have no idea wad i did in the morning till afternoon....

anw...today is a boring day =.= a day too free will jus have the time to tink agn..sian..when will tis ever stop? im goin to watch anime to kill time and stop the thoughts..duno hw long can i last by doing that..but for the time being still can....so let it be ba..better than nth.....

2006-08-18T22:53:00.000-07:00

haiz sian...from the moment i wake up till now still abit mind switch off de..my mind is now some sort of empty now..except jus one and only thing inside..duno why nothing inside except jus only that...is that a gd thing or a bad thing? izzit realli that deep? =.= STOP !! anw jus now slept till 930 den wake up have dinner..watch tv after that till now ba....

anw..wonder if tml is goin out...feel like goin out la..but oso dun feel like goin out....jus feel like lying on the bed whole day enjoy the air con n tv..i realli feel like relaxing myself...but jus scare that i will start to tink too much agn.....haiz..

2006-08-18T18:24:00.000-07:00

hmm..today had poa n physics paper...wah sian..as usual..poa paper is use to slp de...den after that physics..i can say quite easy if u realli got study la...but i dun realli noe hw to do cuz i nvr study..haha...my science has nvr been gd la...so today paper jus dun mean anything to me...

anw..today last day of prelims le...however..i still feel as sian as ever...after all the papers actually wan to go out de la..den, jac , lil , hy , mich and i stand outside sch decide n decide...wah take one hr plus to decide lor..in the end went home zo bo =.= so i went home start to pack things n went for swimming agn as i am too free le la...after swimming come back home change le went to park n run lor...i miscalculate hw many rounds i actually ran..duno 11 or 12...so duno is 4.4 or 4.8...haha..anw..noe got more den 4km can le la...

now jus come back home...goin to bath le and go slp 1st..cuz ytd nite 1am den slp..den today morning 530 wake up le...and after all the things i done in the afternoon..im quite tired le....so slp =) maybe blog more agn tonite ba..or maybe not....

2006-08-17T23:55:00.000-07:00

today...geo paper..wah..need to do 3 questions all together only lor..i go do 4 =.= some ppl more funni..go do all 5 available in the paper....i almost not enuf time to finish bcuz of that lor...somemore becuz of time consuming...i go write only few points for some question and skip to next question and done so again cuz i jus wish to fill in every blanks ma...anw..overall geo paper quite ok la..hope can pass...

anw..2nd paper is poa! wah! gosh ! the most sux subject ever ! my class boys almost all slping throughout the whole paper lor..i jus anyhow scribble la...so at least wont get a 0 mark of the paper...yea! haha..poa is realli gone case for me la....

tml last day of prelims le..so i conclude...my best subjects that got hopes to get A1 de , emaths n chinese..have already let me down liao...den my c.humans...i jus hope can pass and i will be satisfied enuf le..and eng mus pass of cuz...so left with c.science and poa...that one realli gone case for me le la..but c.science i hope to save leh..try to study...but some sort of still fail to save it la....so shall aim for eng , emaths , chinese , c.humans to do well for n lvl..that is my conclusion....

anw...today after papers as usual hang around in the sch canteen..den wah ! yk go use the tap and duno hw he use la, the tap dropped out..den the water jus burst out from the hole like that...keep on spraying..the current was quite strong...teachers try to cover it with plastic bag oso no use....den mr kam they all..so slow de lor....after so long le den stop the water by turn off the main water switch and screw the tap back...the canteen is goin to flood if the water is still bursting out for another 10mins i tink..haha....

went out to ps with cp in the evening to play pool...after that..went to arcade play play lor..wah cannot go out with cp too often man...he money burner..go arcade play n play de lor...cannot control de..haiz...so now im totally broke le la....anw..back home after that..reach home 10++ goin to 11 le..and so here i am to use comp....quite tired le..slping soon...

jus nth can cure tis...so jus zou yi bu kan yi bu ba..let the time cure it...but how long is needed? few weeks? few months? or few yrs? haiz....

2006-08-17T23:00:00.000-07:00

ytd nite never realli get to use the comp..so nvr blog abt ytd stuffs...so here it is...ytd..16/8 had maths paper 2 and chem paper...haiz..the maths paper was challenging but do-able la...and i got to know my maths paper 1 marks le..haiz..wth...it drp one mark compare to my mid-yr paper...haiz..deproved le...sianz..guess my maths paper 2 cant be any better de....one of the only subjects i can do well de had totally let me down le...

ok..den after that chem paper..haha...that one even no need to say...can consider my weakest subject le..dun expect to do any better...jus hope will better den my mid-yr chem paper can le....anw..ytd at nite watching tv lor..den watch till fell aslp so nvr use comp le lor...duno why ytd so tired....

2006-08-15T19:47:00.000-07:00

hmm..today papers,eng paper 2 and ss..haiz..i dun have time to finish for both papers lor...especially ss..gosh..got so much to write, 1hr 30mins jus simply not enuf...during that 1 hr 30mins keep on write non-stop lor, never even stop and the palm is sweating like hell..still not enuf time to finish...sian..a few marks jus gone like that cuz i dun have enuf time to finish, if that few marks is gonna cost me to fail, im realli goin freak out...anw..overall, ss paper still ok la..can do but jus not enuf time =.= ....

den eng paper 2..the passages quite chim la...but still can..i manage to do every questions n the summary...but dun have time to do back some of those questions that have more den one points which i jus put one...jus wish got another 5mins or so for eng paper 2 and 15mins for ss....

anw everything is over..and tml is my doomsday..cause chemistry! gosh ! can consider my weakest subject of all le....haiz..die die die....

well..today morning..wah..the stupid attire check is back =.= .. the sec 5s tio..haiz..soon it will be my turn...sian la..i was still hoping a few days ago that i can keep my hair till the dec holidays when i go work, seem like im goin to get another sch haircut b4 that le..argh ! i cant even keep my hair long tis yr lor..long abit kena cut...unlike last yr, i still got chance to keep till quite long....haiz sian la..jus pray hard that i wont tio the attire check ba.....

anw..i was hanging around the sch canteen after the papers today n chit-chat la...dun wish to go home lor, cause go home oso wont study de..wad for go home? from after the papers 1200 sit there till 1430 still dun wish to go home yet...but everyone is leaving le...so hy n me oso bo bian need to go home le lor...but we actually went to heartland after that jus to walk one round..haha..drag time as much as we can...some sort of our daily routine le....

after reached home till now i oso have not much idea of wad i have done...lol..jus wish i will be abit hardworking n go study..not like now so slack...even myself oso bth.. =.=

haiz..feeling so sad...jus cant stop tinking..especially after i saw something....COME ON ! concentrate on ur prelims now ! it is more important den anything ! so wake up ! * BISH !* argh !!

2006-08-14T22:52:00.000-07:00

oh ya...i suddenly rmb that my only best fren who oso only i can share my troubles with, ben, is goin into ns next yr le ya? haha...haiz..sian..den i will jus have to be independent for the next 2 yrs le ya? gosh...cant imagine the life of that, when u dun have frens to go out and enjoy with, share troubles with, a life without frens is terrible, thats all i can say....anw,ben..if u read tis..do take care ya? i will miss u for the next 2 yrs...haha..of cuz im not gay..so dun worry =D

2006-08-14T22:39:00.000-07:00

haiz..today papers..quite fed up with it la...well,morning eng paper 1 still quite ok...i did write more den wad i normally write..and the topic still quite manageable la...so not much comments abt it....

wad get me real worked up is the 2nd paper, maths paper 1, gosh...my brain is mal-functioning..the paper was still ok...only a few questions i got problems..BUT..jus when i hand in my paper n got out of the room...that i actually made lots of careless mistake ! argh ! those i 100% noe hw to do de all end up do wrong, and i didnt realise it till i left the examination hall...gosh! wad am i doing?! im jus so fed up la...idiotic brain..why jus cannot tink properly at the exam moment...? only after the paper....haiz..

realli disappointed la...my only 2 subjects which got hope to get a1 , emaths n chinese all buang le la...the leftover papers will be even worse le lor..especially chemisty ! argh ! so de-moralising la....well,after the papers, in the afternoon,my mood was not that gd la jus cuz of the stupid maths paper....haiz..wish to find someone to go out relax awhile or wad..but who is free? sian..end up went home lor...look at 4 walls den fell aslp..woke up at evening time...tml eng paper 2 n ss....haiz..i still dun have the mood to study lor..why am i jus so slack ?! i realli hate myself la...why cant i jus be abit hardworking ? sianz...

anw..today duno why not feeling quite well leh,morning till now in fact,my stomach feel so weird...den legs were super tired la..if today no paper i sure take mc stay at home rest de lor...and somemore after the papers,i got serious headache...sian la..well,wad can i say? tis is life....jus when will the things on my mind come true ? haiz..who knows? i may jus die the next morning...no one can predicts life..all i can say..these 2 yrs of my life is realli realli bad...jus hope for the better to come soon ba..i had suffered quite alot already.....well, i may seem happy on the outside..

who will be there with me when im down? who will be there to share joy with me when im happy? haiz..tinking too much agn =.= shall stop....go study for ur prelims MR PEH !! argh !

2006-08-13T21:04:00.000-07:00

wth am i doing here agn? anw..second post of the day...i jus found out that actually i hurt my ankle more den i expected..jus now got up and walk around..can say rather painful la..but is endurable...hope tml morning will be better la..anw jus abit of limping ba..not that obvious...so is not serious =p haiz..no mood to study for tml papers leh...so here i am agn lor..

okay..i cant believe i actually teared jus now again, i noe is useless n meaningless..but haiz..shall not elaborate more....but why am i starting to tink so much agn ?! argh! force myself not to tink ! go study for ur prelims man !

2006-08-13T20:15:00.000-07:00

hmm..quite a tiring day today...woke up in the morning n went to ben's church...wah..i still cant get used to the worshipping...and the tok by the pastor? or whoever la....super bored..i almost fall aslp..anw i dun tink i need to get use to it.....

the exciting part is after that...we changed up after that..and they went for lunch..den me n clement went off to play bball 1st...after that, ppl joining in after their lunch...hmm..i completely under perform la...haha..

anw..went to play soccer after that...starting was bad..i even own goal..gosh! haha...anw after that..cool...im a hat-trick hero..means i scored more den 3...hmm.i tink 4 or 5 ba...one of the goal i rmb very clearly..i actually did dribble pass someone n scored...can u expect a soccer noob to do that? haha..im so so satisfied wif that...but actually i was tinking..izzit that they r letting me cause im some sort of a new-comer to them? aiya..who cares? i jus feel so happy abt that i actually did all that..haha..accomplishment ! =) i played soccer more den bball today instead..and i tink i dun like bball like i used to and i dun hate soccer like i used to...haha..can i say i now prefer soccer more? no idea...well..that is bad actually....

had captain ball after that..nvr realli play much as everyone is getting exhausted...myself oso quite exhausted le la..can say i started playin b4 everyone lor...haha..anw..after everything..den i realised i kinda injured my ankle la..not realli serious..still can walk, jus abit of limping...haha..

went back home after all tis..realli worn out le...tml still got papers..haiz..eng paper 1 n maths paper 1..and i have yet to study but i went to play so much...haiyo..im goin to flunk tis prelims le la....if tml no paper or wad, i sure go take mc n dun go sch tml le lor....i tink thats all for today ba..next week everyday got papers wor..haiz sian.... =(

2006-08-12T22:07:00.000-07:00

okay..today morning,my mum funni la..say she today need to go sentosa..got wad company event..well..thats nth gonna do with me la...but she begin to ask me abt their meeting point as she said she duno houngang mall area well =.= anw.. asked me to help her look at the programmes sheet n translate for her....den ask me dig out bag,she need to bring there..and ask me whether hse have sport shoes n sandals...gosh..like how am i goin to help her? isnt tis she shld do it her own..? not i being rude or bad la.....aiya..jus let her ask tis n that till i fan..den i went out lor...

went to kbox wif ben,ks and vin in the afternoon...hmm...im back home in the late afternoon once agn not left a single cent agn...haiz..i seriously spending way too much recently la...gotta stop n save up le...cant live life like tis...anw..after reach home very sian la...nth to do de..so i went down to skate...haiz..still as noob as ever..when will i ever master it? buay tahan....back home not long after la,cuz kinda sian when u duno oso...watch tv after that lor..lucky got a few nice tv programmes last me till now..

anw i was ask to go to ben's church tml morning agn...weird thing is that im kinda look forward to it..maybe we r goin to play bball after service ba..haha...quite some time nvr play le..but although i like playin la...but oso very lousy leh..haiz...why am i so useless? everything oso duno...i jus cant find something im good at lor..sometimes i jus envy other ppl so much...haiz sian...very free now la..start to anyhow tink agn..

i noe i shldnt be like tis..but i cant help it...why do i feel so empty? especially these few days...haiz..argh ! force myself not to tink !

2006-08-11T23:57:00.000-07:00

haiz..boring day today..after a long holiday..dun realli have the mood to go back sch today actually..but still need to go anw...early in the morning,mrs low sod liao..suddenly wan check sl's attire...haha..anw..start of prelims today...sianz..today chinese paper....wah tink buang liao..paper 1 i tink i write out of point lor althought i write quite alot...den paper 2..quite difficult lor....haiyo..like that my chinese hw to get A1?

anw...went to ps in the evening with cp to watch tokyo drift..hmm..rather nice show...after the show, we went around to see hp lor..den cp super steady,say wanna buy hp den jus buy like that,never even tink abt it...so he bought k610i..rather a gd phone la...but im not steady..i still need to tink properly 1st b4 purchasing it.....but his actions realli tempt me to change my phone asap..but i didnt in the end..haha...persisting enuf..tink wisely is still better ba....went home after that lor..

haiz...im totally broke le la..ytd go home still got 40cents left..today go home not even left a single cent lor...somemore today's money i still go withdraw 20bucks de leh...gosh..i sure spend alot tis week....tis is so bad..i realli need to control it..and tml still goin k lunch? wah....money n more money..haiz....gonna start saving money n stop spending like that le..

2006-08-10T22:51:00.000-07:00

hmm..went to sim lim jus now agn to meet ben..he bought his 1GB memory card for his phone..and i asked details abt the psp..the price is quite reasonable..is urgin me to buy it..argh...but i wan to change phone oso...which one to buy? and my stupid dad..go sign on my phone plan 2 months ago without noticing me...haiz..now wan to change phone oso no plan to sign....i seriously need a mp3 player..if not im realli dying..so psp or phone? or both..? haiz....

anw..went to fish n co. to have our dinner jus now....gosh! the pasta is realli nice..n we oso ordered jungle freeze,rather a huge cup,we shared..after we eat finish everything..the ice blend still not yet melt finish...bo bian..left abit den go le,nvr drink finish....went back home after that by mrt..haiz..tml start of prelim le =.= sianz la...chinese papers..

2006-08-10T14:05:00.000-07:00

its been sometime since i blogged..haiz...so many unhappy things had happened durin the time..shall not elaborate more abt it...one of the matters realli makes me heartbroken..and my mood was bad for several days for that....haiz..actually till now..i will still tink of it..but wad can i do?

anw..tis week got a long holiday ya? tues halfday..ytd national day...den today oso holiday..one week will jus gonel ike that...well..didnt realli do much things ba...during tues 8/8 after sch at 11..went to ben hse and back home to change to go watch click with ben's sis n his church fren andy...while ben went to watch tokyo drift with his conductor at other places....k after the movie i went to meet ben at marina bay..initially we r goin to have dinner with last yr 5n ppl..but too much ppl there...so ben n i separate from them n we went to watch the fireworks..is the 2nd time i had watched it..and i cant believe i teared..wth? why will tis happened? well..anw after the fireworks..didnt join back oso...we went to city hall there to had our dinner...we went back home after that without them....

so ytd..national day..hmm..went to bugis in the afternoon to meet ben..and we went to sim lim walk around lor....after that i went home to get my blades and went to ben's hse to skate lor..haiz..im such a failure..i still duno hw to skate....anw..went home after that...thats abt it i tink...seem rather a meaningless life..

today...tink rotting the whole day at home le...and i hate my dad! argh....when am i getting my phone? crap.....anw..tml is the start of prelims le..haiz..so fast..which means n lvl oso coming soon le..im not even prepared yet...even i retained..however i dun feel like i gain any xtra knowledge, still as dumb as ever and n lvl coming agn le..haiz...wad am i goin to do? jus put everything to rest 1st n concentrate on studies? i doubt im gonna do it......

2006-07-23T23:01:00.000-07:00

hmm..tok abt ytd 1st ba...22/7..went out in the morning to meet ben n pei him go his work place lor..quite cool...a shop of only him working..alot of freedom..but..its realli bored..cuz nth to do oso de....anw..with him at bras basah complex whole day lor..den in the afternoon..his choir junior came....den we went to had our dinner at miss clarity after closing the shop..quite nice la..but somehow..the price doesnt realli worth it...its abit exp..anw..went back home after that lor...

today..nth to do at home oso..so went to find ben at his workplace agn lor..reached there,apple oso there...den we go walk around lor..cuz realli kinda bored la..in that shop oso nth much to do...den ltr he leave at five for his work...den ben's sis n his church fren came lor...went to suntec's nydc to had our dinner after closing the shop...the food is realli nice =) but cannot eat often la,sure bankcrupt de...these 2 days we r like jus living the rich ppl lifestyle..go to these expensive places to eat...sure spend alot of money these two days....anw went home after that lor...haiz..feeling so sian..got headache...my mind is jus fully filled with things...keep thinking of alot of things..haiz......kinda depress oso la..anw shouldnt elaborate more...thats all for these two days..tml sch agn le...1st 3 period see mdm tian liao..song bo....haha..and oso mus wear that raggart sch shoe la..realli bth,sure got blister de...but bo bian oso la...haiz......i jus cant stop tinking abt it..my mind is heavily on task...

2006-07-18T21:42:00.000-07:00

hm..been feeling sick recently...tis morning feel so nauseous..haiz..so uncomfortable...anw..jus happened that when i m on my way back home from sch..i suddenly feel ok already..my body realli got some problems...haha..

anw..alot of things is bothering me...haiz..after all i can only conclude that i get affected by u easily..ur mood.....is that a bad or gd thing....haiz..time n more time is needed.....

2006-07-16T20:22:00.000-07:00

lets start from fri..14/6....went to jt hse for bbq after sch..of zy,xuee,cy,liyana,jac,hy and jt of cuz....till around 7,hy had to leave....den we carry on lor..jac very hardworking..keep on stayin at the pit there...anw..was quite fun la...till a msg had ruined everything..i tink i had ruined their mood oso la..realli sorry.....haiz..shall not elaborate more abt it................

ytd..sat,15/6...went out in the afternoon for movie lor..pirates of caribbean...hmm..quite nice la..but still got 3rd part wor..sian...duno mus wait till when....after that went around shopping lor..from ps to heeren n cine...den ltr go taka had dinner n went home le lor....it was quite enjoyable la =) it does help in the mood a lot a lot......

well today..hmm..bored...whole day at home..doin nth..so find vcds and dvds out to watch lor..den my mum came back from church,snatch away tv only..so i have to use comp lor...den my comp duno wad happened..cannot watch dvd liao...haiz..realli a bored bored day...hmm..moustache is obvious agn..had to shave agn...now need to shave more n more often..next time need to everyday liao..aiyo..ma fan....anw..very sian now..very bored...i tink there is only one can help it...but nvm.......tml sch agn..sian..mus wear that stupid,lousy n raggart sch shoes le..bo bian....

2006-07-12T22:14:00.000-07:00

hmm..had n lvl eng oral today...haiz..very nervous la...although i noe im taking the 2nd time,by right shld be more confident..but i jus feel the other way round...i get more nervous..haiz..i dun tink i do that gd la...anyway..after oral went to ben hse...tok awhile..use comp awhile lor.....den at nite thx for sw to pei me have dinner lor..if not i eating alone le...then like torturing her like that...let her see me eat only....sorry for that but realli thx..went back home after that lor.....reached home quite late le..still in sch u..tink goin to slp early tonite ba..quite tired........

2006-07-10T19:20:00.000-07:00

super long nvr update...so here i am..hmm..ok today during assembly period,wah! do the new south wales thing agn! paper 1 ! omg! i bek chek...so anyhw ti kam lor.....anw..today overall mood still quite gd..although didnt realli have the chance to see.........so after sch drag very long le den go home..reached home..around evening time....msn..haiz..i realli get affected after that conversation...my mood change right after that..feel so sian n vexed now...haiz..been in dilemma recently..i jus cant figure it out wad to do....guess only thing that can help is time? i need more time..........

2006-06-23T23:17:00.000-07:00

hmm..today went out wif jl around afternoon time..to hand in the punch card..cuz ytd last day of work le ma...den went to bugis after that..bought 2 shirts from newbie..become their member..den i 1st time use nets to pay...anw..tink tml goin there agn to collect another shirt..cuz is at another outlet,will be deliever to bugis by tml......and thx alot jl, xiao mei...anw..tml was suppose to go out somewhere de,but cancel le..so goin to be at home doing nth le lor..haiz..nvm...my mood is realli bad recently la..bth liao lor..will burst out everything anytime de.....shall stop here..

2006-06-21T23:44:00.001-07:00

k..lets summarise everything together....started work at 15..to tis fri..i tink is 23....anw..was in very gd mood on sunday which is the 1#..duno why oso...was bad before that la......den on the 19 my college last day working..so ytd came an new college..happen to be our sch de ppl..so get along easily...k..anw..today my mood is realli sux now..i cant believe i drp tears agn...cause think of something? k i shall not carry on anymore further..........

2006-06-13T21:05:00.000-07:00

haiz..so many days had passed..is not gd at all...jus that u cant see that from me on the outside....anw..during these days..done alot of things..went to learn roller bladin for twice...den luckily for the third week of the holidays onwards..i no need to go back sch le..duno why oso la..but result is worse den some who asked to go back sch still de lor....duno wad the teachers thinking abt la..

anw..ytd went to sentosa wif ben n his church frens...i abit xtra la..but they are friendly =) however i still felt very uneasy..is like so many ppl i duno de..quite scary de lor..it was quite fun...but i tink i will enjoy it more if i noe them..can consider know quite a number of frens from tis outing la....

for today..stayed at home whole day lor..nth to do..haiz...lots of things flashin thru my mind la..although my body is restin throughout the whole day la but my mind isnt at all..instead im havin a headache now le..and i tink gona get fever soon,all the symptons coming out..haiz...i left tml n a few days to rest n play le..i will start working from 15 to 22....after that sch reopen,will be stressful liao..prelims n everything coming....haiz..some thing i still cant figure out............

2006-05-29T21:51:00.000-07:00

haiz..today marks the 376 days..and it may consider coming to an end...but i somehow got a feeling of something, like somehow it will not actually......wadever la..maybe is i tink too much...haiz..everything is so painful =( i feel so evil...., these few days can consider one of the most hight tide, realli serious la ,keep on crying, its painful..haiz........i jus cant carry on anymore 290506.. =(( it very hiong , its very seh...

2006-05-27T23:21:00.000-07:00

a very sad day..... =(

2006-05-26T23:25:00.000-07:00

boring day...today after sch went to play bb for awhile wile waiting for ben to finish his chinese intensive =.= until almost 6pm liao den come out lor..den ben and his fren,i tink is huimin and i went to toa payoh lor...they wanna sign up new plan n change the phone to 6280....den i go there look look ma cause i wish to change phone oso..anw,ben signed up his new plan at toa payoh..his bro is so gd la..got match but still come to pay for him...k la..den after that went to cp cuz hm got vouchers and can only use at the retail main branch..den went go cp lor...wah..the queue was long..so i went up to banquet to have my dinner lor..after that i went back n waited outside for sometime lor,read newspaper n dazing,was thinking abt alot of things then...but i dun realli mind actually cause reach home oso do nth ma....den after that went home le lor.....haiz..ppl holidays now..i still need to go back sch for 2 to 3 weeks during the june holidays..means only got 1 week to play n rest...sian.....

2006-05-23T21:46:00.000-07:00

ya..btw...finally got back my poa paper after my teacher have been absent for so many days...paper 1 - 6.5/40 paper 2 - 15.5/60 so total only 22/100 for poa...lol very jia lat..whole class only got 8 ppl pass....haha..we r united =) so in total i pass only 3/6 subjects...haiz..realli bad la =.=

2006-05-23T21:31:00.000-07:00

Was told to go back home n bring the eng file back to sch for the teacher to check but i didnt..i went to play bb instead..tml morning den give her ba...anyway after sch went to play bb straight lor..until around evening den go home, reach home around 7+ liao...very tired..tink tml my whole body will be aching le...very tired now..tinking im sleeping early today....see if tml i cannot tahan den dun go sch le =p

2006-05-22T20:05:00.000-07:00

k..a super short summary on ytd n today....hmm..ytd stay at home whole day zo bo lor...then i past my whole day like that lor..super sian la....

anw,today pe,play bb awhile only..den play wad stupid volleyball,i dun noe hw to play lor...den halfway got fire drill la..so stupid...all the teachers hw old liao still always playin fire drill make the whole sch go to field n sun-tan,they very happy ar? all sadist =.= but i dun realli mind la..haha...cuz i wanna tanned...anw after went back to class..so sian lor,nth to do de....but got the urge of playin bb le..so after sch intially wan to go downstairs play bb de..but asked jt n bryan along..end up become playin soccer....den went back home realli drenched cause was raining ma...anw,still quite sian these few days leh,oso luan n fan....aiya..jus plain sian la maybe...

2006-05-20T23:19:00.000-07:00

went to tm at 1st with fran n yq..den ltr duno y went to lido la...fran was super desperate to watch da vinci la..but thought of many ways still cant work la...in the end,we watched over the hedge =.= from rated NC16 bcome rated G....but the show was still quite nice la..den ltr went to far eat gia gia after the show ended....then took train back to kovan..but reach kovan liao,dun wish to go back home yet leh..so i take back to dhoby ghaut to find fran,she was with her frens,2 other frens,one is audrey i tink,the other i dun realli noe...nvm..anw,i abit regret joining them la..cause like yq said,they are one clique ma,i go there extra extra..somemore im the only guy...k la,den ltr went gia gia around ps lor..den took train back le...reach home quite tired lor..den oso abit fan and luan..aiya..alot of mixed feelings la...think i sod liao......

2006-05-19T23:20:00.000-07:00

a super fucked up day..the end.......

2006-05-18T22:16:00.000-07:00

ok..here for a small summary post..lazy to type more....today after sch went back home lor..den ltr cycle to jt hse,see him zheng his bike,help in abit lor...den ltr after play soccer lor..anyhow kick oso de la...den after that play pes5 lor......den cycle back home le..bath,dinner and everything already 9+ le..nth much i can do..and is quite tired le..so tink will sleep soon ba.....anyway,my midyr results all disappointing la..somemore i retain de lor,still did so badly...haiz..im jus dumb la maybe..not suitable for academic stuffs...shld choose go ite that time..anyway, results are as below:

Eng - 59.3/100 ( paper 1 - 37/60 paper 2 - 46/80 )
MT - 56.8/100 ( paper 1 - 37/70 paper 2 - 42/70 )
E.Maths - 59/100 ( paper 1 - 40/60 paper 2 -19/40 )
C.Humans - 47/100 ( SS - 23/50 E.Geo - 24/50 )
C.Science - 38/100 ( Physics - 21/50 Chem - 17/50 )
P.O.A - not yet know,but tink is sure buang de la....

if u notice,i only pass 3 subjects la..sommore i pass hor,all not even over 60 lor,so damn low la..haiz....anyway,today is quite a special day la..is our one year anniversary le...hmm..k la...shall stop here,lazy to type more.....

2006-05-14T20:52:00.000-07:00

hmm..went out to cut hair today in the evening,cuz hair-check soon....is realli short now la..den after that go play bb with jt for awhile lor..den went home le.....after a long weekend..tml sch start le..hope for the better for the oncoming days ba...=)

2006-05-13T19:43:00.000-07:00

went out with her to cinne to watch MI3 agn..but i dun mind...haha..anyway,after watch finish le go heeren walk walk lor...den pei her home le......

2006-05-12T23:57:00.000-07:00

story starts.....went out to ps to catch MI 3 with hy,jac.lil,mich,jt,zy and xue e....after that hy,jac and mich left..me,jt,zy,lil and xue e went to bugis after that....i almost midnight then reach home..story ends....

2006-05-05T21:34:00.000-07:00

hmm..exams start 2days ago le..had eng paper 1,ss paper,maths paper 1 and mt paper 1&2...still quite ok la..but the leftover papers i dun tink is ok for me le...like chem n poa paper,i tink i sure buang de..nvm anyway..recently my mood is very bad...haiz..den keep thinking lots of things in my mind..aiya...jus feel so fan these few days la..maybe in sch u will see that im happy on the outside..but seriously inside im not...kk..no mood to carry on..........

2006-04-29T20:38:00.000-07:00

hmm..ok very long nvr post le..so here to post one short one ba...all the sch events had pass le...like art fes,sports day..and homecoming...all so sian de..especially homecoming...compare to last few yrs..tis yr so sian de.....anw..after all tis events had passed..mus study le..haiz sian...mid yr exam coming le..feeling stress? i duno la...jus the sian feeling..ya..ytd some cbk bday? haiyo..such crap day....k tok abt today ba..not at home the whole day till nite..rain at the evening..bo bian...jus like that come back lor..den duno why reach home like totally souless le..everything oso dun feel like doing...tml is sunday..even more sian...haiz..duno hw to pass the oncoming days with the mood im having now......

2006-04-14T18:20:00.000-07:00

Oh ya...almost 4got..recently always a fool keep on harrassing her on her blog de tagboard..i wonder who it is..come find me instead la....y mus drag her in? i jus dun understand tis bloody fool...

2006-04-14T18:10:00.000-07:00

Was quite busy the past few days and also dun realli much is happening so i didnt blog....however,today was so free..stay at home doing nth...walk around the hse lor..she went out today...miss her lots..anyway tml is the homecoming day le...hmm..but i dun realli look forward to it..duno y also...btw,got my class tee ytd for tis yr...the design so so ba..and oso...tml homecoming hy isnt goin..aiyo..kinda sian la like that...hmm..dun realli have anything to write abt le.....sianzation..

2006-04-05T21:14:00.000-07:00

Nothing much happened today...today dismiss early at one..but got xtra poa lesson after that actually,mrs goh nvr come..den i wait for awhile den went to her hse lor...spent a little time with her den accompany her back to sch for her cca le...den i went back home le...met alan halfway..duno where he goin...anyway,reached home le..oso duno wad to do...jus play abit of dota lor...den until now so late le..time realli flies....haiz..a short afternoon till now nvr see her,im starting to miss her so so much le....awaiting for her call.....

2006-04-04T20:53:00.000-07:00

hmm..quite a happy day i had today...i tink mostly is thx to her =) and i did my homework which i seldom do it..! but not all i mus say..but got MOST of them le...haha..anyway..after sch went her hse ba...den ltr accompany her to tuition lor...den i went back home..and now bloggin...realli happy today..she treats me very nice n gd today..i was so so happy =D hope tis kind of day can come more often....however,today my lens are bad..my right eye i tink got infected..tink tml wearing specs le..haiz..once i changed to tis brand..nvr been a pair which is gd..tink gonna change back again...haiz..waste money...but after all..i realli enjoy today..all thx to her =) and i am missing her very badly now...wish to see her very single moment......

2006-04-03T20:55:00.000-07:00

haiz...today totally no mood for anything..den during pe lesson damn bek chek...nvm im weaker den u..so wad? u win lor....anyway..today self study mrs lim nvr come den was given ws to do...i quickly finish it n went to her house as it was still early..but only spend sometime with her and needed to gym with jt n zy le...haiz..realli cant bear to leave her...and i tink i made her unhappy again..haiz...i everytime oso made her unhappy de..i realli realli very guilty n not in very gd mood le....anw,im very very tired now,dun even feel like goin to sch tml...goin to rest now..and ''GOOD'' fren..very happy of u winning me hor? congrats den... =)